My fitness goal: to be able to #yogaeverydamnday

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Sarah and I on our next lives

I don't know when it started but I can't believe that I've turned into a cat lady.

I was never an animal person. My friends with pets know this because I'm one of those annoying friends who harass their pets semi-physically by shoo-ing them away and verbally abuse them telling them how ugly they are (the pets) which always ends up with my friends secretly hating me. :3

But the wheel has turned and everything has changed because I super find cats adorable and I want to own one. I can not wait for me to become an official cat lady when I finally have my own cat only God knows when.

On the Loop

1. Shower - Becky G
2. Ride - SoMo
3. Shot Me Down - David Guetta
4. Stay High (Habits Remix) - Tove Lo ft Hiipie Sabotage
5.Chandelier - Sia
6. Jubel - Klingade
7. Waves (Robin Schulz Remix) - Mr. Probz
8. A Sky Full of Stars - Coldplay
9. XO - Beyonce
10. Unconditionally - Katy Perry

Recap for the past months. A lot of things happened and they happened so quickly. The lifestyle of people nowadays are so fast paced that even the events are so fast I can't cope.

To summarize everything that happened, I'm just happy to be where I am now. I'm happy for the things that have happened to me in the past because as cliche as it sounds, they made me, uhhhmm I hate to say this but, stronger and wiser.

I'm happy. :) and I think that's what's most important. Isn't that our purpose in life more than to be financially wealthy. HAHA

xx,

Annie

Blogging Hiatus

I've been on a hiatus because surprisingly, I've been really busy with real life. Makes me miss my virtual life (as if I have one. lol)

July started really well. My week has been really good since this Monday and until today I'm still in this happy bubble. I don't think anyone can ever burst it and kill my vibe. I'm just too happy and been really lucky lately.

July is my month. Claiming it!!

New month's resolution: Use 3G less so I wont get extra charges on my phone bill!!!! MUST RESIST.

xx,

Annie

Girlsgirlsgirls

One thing I cannot understand now is why girls stay with their boyfriends who doesn't do anything but to give them heartaches and heartbreaks. I mean is it not enough that they take you for granted? Like seriously? Why stay if the other person does not even show you that you are important and worthy? WHY? WHYYYY? HAHAHA Like I just want to get a rock and throw it to their head because that is exactly what they are doing to themselves.

I will never ever ever ever allow myself to be treated like that because I have enough self respect to know my worth.

We accept the love we think we deserve. Anything less than we deserve is not worthy. Let go and move on. 

Couldn't have said it better. 

Too cheeseballs for words. 

Throwback Thursday to 23

It has not been a month since I turned 24. Turning 24 did put a lot of pressure on me. A year older and should be a year wiser and I hope I am. I assure you I am.

Looking back on the year that was, I can say that 23 has been exciting for me. Really really exciting. It was a year of being single, carefree, (emotionally) independent, emotionally shattering and all kinds of roller coaster.

23 was the best year of my life yet. I felt most alive when I was 23. 23 made me feel how happy it is to be alive.

In 23, I learned gratitude. I learned contentment. I learned that you don't need a lot to be happy. I learned that meeting new interesting people makes your life interesting as well. I learned that to be really happy, you need a best friend who will support you in whatever it is that you want to do even if it may sound stupid because she trusts you enough to know what is correct. I learned to be understanding. I learned that it's okay if you don't have a lot of friends. Quality is always greater than quantity. I learned that having fake friendship will people is just as bad as wasting your time doing nothing or may be way worse. I learned that I can not put up with people's bullshit and to stand up on what I believe in. I learned to slow down. I learned to control my emotions. I learned to take things slowly. I learned to be cautious. I learned to be mature. The most important thing I learned when I was 23 was that we are our conscious effort to be who we are. We are who we want to be and we can be who we want to be by our conscious effort to be that person and that we should always continue to be the best version of ourselves. That the only person we should be better than is the person we were yesterday.

I used to think that people are born to be this person and she is that person because she is that person but social psychology explains so much on who a person is.

In my conscious efforts, I also learned how to be organized which is one of the things I'm most happy about. I am still not the most organized person in the world but I am better than I was before and I still try to be better than I am today. I will never stop doing this.

I learned how to be more uptight. Being uptight makes me happy. It makes me feel in control. I wish one day I will have to bid my carefree days goodbye and look back and see how much fun I had when I was younger. Sometimes I'm too uptight and worry too much that I worry for non sense things. This is one trait I wish to loosen up a bit this 24, to let go of the things that doesn't matter.

I also learned that when you want something, it is not enough to just want it because you have to get up and kick your ass to get what you want!!!! Wanting something hard enough is one thing and I admire people who are passionate and who wants to achieve their goals but acting on your dreams is another. This 24, I promise myself to start achieving these goals. To start materializing these ideas. I spent 3 years of my official grown up life learning and I think it is time to go and get it. I'm more ready for you than ever, dear life. I am no longer afraid to fall down because I know I will be able to get up and stand again. One of the reasons that was holding me back of getting what I want is because of my fear for failure and now the only fear that I have is not moving forward. My only fear is that I will stop having the drive to push myself.

There are so much more that I learned this year that it is impossible to list down everything but to cut it short, year 23 has been nothing but great. Really really great. 

Thanks, 23. For being awesome. I'm nothing but grateful.

<3

P.S. I also met this awesome person who has been nothing but amazing. Thanks, 23 for giving me that. 

xx,

Annie

NOTE TO SELF

1.) Take nice photos and post it online.

I've recently reactivated my tumblr and this time, I want to be able to post beautiful photos that I personally took instead of just reblogging a bunch of other tumblr users. 

One thing I regret the most this Laboracay 2014 was that I wasn't able to take a lot of photos. When I checked my phone for photos to post online, all I see are selfies of me and my friends and I don't think it is appropriate to post an album on social media with multiple pictures of yourself taken by yourself. That's just irk worthy. Although I am guilty of posting selfies on my instagram feed. hehe

2.) Look good to feel good.

I am guilty of going to work without trying to look good anymore because I mostly just sit my way through the day on my office table finishing my paper works and I just can not do this to myself anymore. I feel like I'm wasting so much of my potential sitting here but once everything's settled in the office, I will go out and have more productive days! 

That is why I promise to make myself look good everyday so I'll be most inspired to have more productive days. 

3.) Do something more productive.

Read #2 for work related activities and #5 for health activities.

4.) Go on a beach trip before summer ends. 

I'm planning to hit the beach before the summer ends and I plan to go somewhere farther up north and catch the sunrise so that means leaving the city at wee hours of the morning so I can start the day right and go home early to end it right. 

I just want to go to a secluded beach for some peace and relaxation. Do nothing. Think nothing. Clear the mind and take pictures (read #1). 

5.) Be 100% into fitness and health.

 I realized that if you're going to be into fitness, you can not be half hearted in it. It's either you're in or you're out and I decided that I will be 100% into it. Cannot wait to start exercising and clean eating again. I kind of deviated from clean eating ever since I got back from Boracay because of my I-will-give-myself-one-week-window-to-cheat emote and now I blame myself from being fat again. 

6.) Buy a memory card for your cellphone.

I keep complaining on how bad the resolution of pictures taken from my phone is and how bad I want to upgrade my phone to an iPhone then last night, as I was talking to my friend, he said something about adjusting the settings of my phone to make the resolution better then boom! It hit me! I set the resolution to it's lowest setting (2.4megapixels) the last time because it was occupying to much space on my phone and I don't have a memory card so my phone always reaches its low memory alert. Sorry for being a cheapo! I will now invest on a memory card so I can take hi-res phone photos! 

7.) Track expenses -again - and try to spend as little as I can.
It would've been shorter if I name #7 as save money but that is not what I am aiming for. I do save a huge chunk of my salary for my savings. I only get 10% of my salary to spend on whatever I want. I used to spend all of that allowance on whatever I want and just spend as long as it is within budget but now I want to track all my expenses and try to really look for cheap and/or free places to go to. Cheap food to eat and cheap hangouts. Okay I say cheap like it's a bad thing but what I mean is that instead of the usual hangout places we go to that serves 80 to 90 pesos for a bottle of beer, I want to try to go to less expensive places where we can get drinks for a more affordable price! 

With that being said, I meant 7 eleven. Haha. Our friend, Stan is managing a 7 eleven owned by his family that's newly opened in City Time Square, in front of Parkmall, and already, we are claiming that place to be our tambayan where we can get cheap drinks!! 28 pesos for a bottle of San Mig Apple. Gosh. I don't think I can ever go back to paying for 90pesos beer (Politics)!!

I've tried tracking my expenses last April because my friend Ina introduced me to this app called SPENDING and I thought it was the best app ever invented for people who wants to see how they are spending. April is such a bad month to start keeping track because I spent a LOT that month. Like A LOOOOT that even I was shocked that I was capable of spending that amount on nothing. No major purchases. Just mindless spending. Don't get me started this May because I did not even bother to keep track anymore. I'll just start tracking by June. :p HEHE 

You gotta have bad days too

I'm usually in a happy bubble when I'm not pms-ing. I try so hard to be in a good mood everyday like it's my mission to live everyday as if it's my last. As soon as I open my eyes, my mind is focused on doing only the things that will give me good vibes and brush all the bad vibes away but today is not an ordinary day. Today is extra special because as soon as I woke up, I know that today is going to be a bad day and I know it will be.

I believe in law of attraction and I believe on how it works that is why I have accepted that today is going to be a bad day and I'm okay with it. I'm not going to do anything to try to make it better because you gotta have bad days too.

I'm thankful for the bad day that is happening to me today. It gives me so much rage and fire on how unhappy I am with things and is finding ways to find solutions and improvements. You see, being unhappy make me happy. How ironic. 

Being unhappy leads us toward self improvement. My heart is filled with so much emotions that it makes me so unhappy and uncomfortable which only lead me to think "what can I do to improve this?" so today, I decided to take actions on a lot of things that makes me sad and mad. They maybe decisions made on a bad emotion which often is not the best time to make decisions but they are little decisions that are not life changing so I guess it's totally fine to act on it right away. LOL. 

Ranting and being unhappy lead me to having a productive morning. Thank God for this. Definitely something to be thankful for. 

Of course I will do what I do best on my blog, RANT. So I will list down my top rants of the day.

RANTS

1. Waking up late.

I can't believe myself for waking up at 8:15am. I just promised myself last week that I will start waking up early again this week and it's just the first work day of the week yet I woke up at a very unacceptable time. The latest I woke up on a work day this year, I think. Which explains how bad my mood has become. I am so unhappy with myself and is disappointed. I have failed my employers for being such a lazy ass and I have failed myself too.

2.Slow Cebu drivers

Cebuanos are just slow drivers!!!! I don't know what is it with Cebuanos and their driving skills but everyone from Manila noticed this too. My Cebuano friend explained that they are cautious drivers because the streets are small and that there are a lot of motor bikers so they drive slowly to avoid accidents but but but but I cannot accept this!! The lifestyle here is too laid back that it is manifested in their driving skills. 

I'm kind of guilty because when I first came here, my driving skill was also affected. I became a slow and very cautious driver which my sister was so pissed at and my friends from Manila noticed too! Until now, I feel that I have semi adapted the Cebu driving style and I'm thankful for today because I will ditch slow driving and start driving Manila style. LOL. That's what I did today, honked at everyone who were driving so slowly blocking my way to get to my office faster because well... I was so late.

3. Unhappy with things

Personal things that I'm unhappy with that I wish I can publicly rant but I decided I wont because it involves feelings of people I love and I don't want to hurt them when they read it here. Besides, it's their way of doing things I'm very unhappy about and it's totally out of my business. Just being a bitch and bitching about all things available to bitch about on. I should just breathe in, breathe out and let this go. Now that I think about it, I also don't understand why I'm so pissed about this issue. I'm only killing myself by doing this. HEHE but you know!! The bitch has to bitch around. I pity the people who'll get involved in my emotional rut.

4. Expectations leads to disappointments.

'Nuff said.

On a lighter note, I'm back to clean eating and my fitness streak so everything should be fine. :) 

xx,

A

Boracay Food Diary

May 1
Breakfast at home
Omelette with mushroom and tomato
1 pc toasted bread

Lunch at the Cari Lounge by the bay
Adobo
Fish Sinigang
Rice

Refreshments at Starbucks
Iced venti white chocolate mocha because it was too hot and we were so dehydrated

Dinner at Frypan
Rolled egg.
Just rolled egg because the beef bulgogi was too eeww for words.

May 2
Breakfast in bed (Tapa King)
Tocilog in bed because the bff was too nice to buy me breakfast in bed.  

Breakfast # 2
Buffet breakfast c/o hotel
Scrambled egg
Cereals with milk
half toasted bread

*okay. I ate more than what I can remember. For sure that's not just what I ate.

Lunch at Pamana
Sinigang
Pinakbet
Kare kare
Sugpo
Crispy Pata
Grilled boneless bangus
Rice

Dinner at Yellow Cab
Shrimp and garlic pizza
Spicy chicken wings

May 3
Breakfast at Andok's
lechon manok
sinigang
Dokito
rice

Refreshments
Mango shake from the hotel. BESTEST SHAKE IN THE WHOLE ISLAND IF NOT THE WORLD.
Mango ice cream from Mangoholic

Lunch at The Cari Lounge by the bay
Bopis x 2
Tokwa't baboy
Beef nilaga
Afritada
Left over from breakfast
rice

Refreshments at Crazy Crepe
Pistachio Freezee

Dinner at some Mexican restaurant in D'Mall 
chicken fajita
calamansi juice

May 4
Buffet breakfast at the hotel
*I decided to follow my heart and eat to it's desire because heeey I'm going home.
garlic rice
misua soup
scrambled egg
hotdog
chicken and potatoes in gata which I loved a lot I had to go back for round 2
pansit
koko crunch and milk

Lunch at Tinderbox, Mactan airport
Pasta with sausage!! Forgot the name!
Iced cafe latte

Dinner at home
Alaskan king crab legs with lemon butter sauce
bacon flavoured lechon kawali with fresh garlic in oil
rice porridge in crab broth
rice (LOL at carbo loading)

#cleaneats

There goes my new obsession. I know that it's too early to write about something I'm new to but I have so much emotions about this new obsession of mine. It's just something I see that I can commit to. The funnest part is actually not the eating part but the process that takes place before it. The planning out what to cook, preparation and the final part when you get to taste the food that you prepared and think "Hey, clean food doesn't have to taste so bad after all!" and everything actually tastes so good. It makes me happy.

I'm looking forward to preparing more healthy and clean food. It doesn't hurt that I get to lose weight on the process too! :) I hope I can stick with this lifestyle in the long run because it gives me more gratification than indulging in mindless eating and binge eating on junk food! It actually challenges me more to think of healthier options for snacks than to just grab on the yummiest looking junk food my mind tells me to EAT! 

Birthday Wish List 2014

...and things to be grateful for.

Birthday wishlist in random order.

TANGIBLE THINGS 

1.) Personalized Tote Bag by Sarah V. Got a sketch from the fab Sarah V.

      What is a more thoughtful gift than the gift of custom made by a very talented person? 

2.) Coffee maker  from the fab Sarah V.

      For my office coffee drinking purpose. I don't know if this will be very useful though because I drink my coffee once a day on a normal day which I drink during breakfast.

3.) Nars The Multiple matte bronzing stick

4.) Real techniques face brush set

     Now if you are a friend of mine in real life and wants to get me this as a gift and has no clue where to get it, let me help you. This can be bought online from instagram shops (check @es_online) and WAGW in Ayala Cebu also (used to) sell this. If it's no longer available in the aforementioned, please be a better friend and do your research too! 

5.) Shu Uemura eyebrow pencil (HARD)  again, from the fab Sarah V. I'm spoiled I know.

6.) UCC coffee beans/grounds or a any other good coffee beans.

     If you are not sure if it is good, send it to me so I can give it a try. Remind me to remind you if they are good. 

7.) Concealer (any brand. please recommend a good one. I'm so out of the makeup game lately)

      My eye bags will be forever grateful to you.

8.) Benefit Porefessional

      Just to add to my stash. A real hoarder hoards.

9.) Organizational Stuff

      I'm kind of addicted to organizational stuff lately.

10.) Nike Flyknits

      Now, if you really love me that much and would want to extend your great appreciatiIon for my existence, please buy me a nice pair of Flyknits or any other cute pair of running shoes. I will love you forever. 

11.) Water jugs/jars

       I love water jugs and can't get enough of them. I love drinking water so trust in me when I say that this will be a useful gift.

12.) Exercise shorts

       For the runner wannabe in me. Got a bunch of yoga clothes which makes my heart so happy! 

13.) Samsung Galaxy Note Tab 

       Although I have a feeling that Samsung will release a newer, nicer tab soon. I still want a Samsung Tab.

14.) iPhone 5s or a 5c

       I cannot decide which I like more. The sleek and chic one or the cute one. I'm just crazy that I want to switch my current gadgets. I actually want a Samsung tab an Apple phone and I currently have a Samsung phone and an Apple tab. I wish that I would just be content with what I have instead of  wanting things that I don't have. LOL Got a free phone again! <3

INTANGIBLE THINGS

I'm not even sure if it is grammatically correct to call it things if it is intangible. Anyway, you get me so stop being a grammar Nazi.

15.) Reach my goal weight before my birthday.

      Maybe a little too much to wish for but a girl can dream, right? If ever I get pass my birthday without reaching it, I am not in a hurry! I dedicate this year my healthy eating year and I promise myself to dedicate myself into planning out my meals and eating healthier and cleaner meals. No more YOLO-ing when it comes to food. I'll always remember when to be adventurous still. Don't worry, I won't turn KJ on you if we eat out. I promise. I can never say NO to a good meal with friends. :D

16.) Become a better version of myself.

       It is always my goal to become a better version of myself every day. That's why I dedicate myself into reading things that interests me. Which varies. One day I'm interested in makeup, the other days I'm interested in organization, business, computers, architecture, talking about other people (HAHAHA) or just reading a bunch of things out of Thought Catalog (which was my favorite website but I'd like to think we lost it. They've been posting really nonsense and useless stuff lately). Every day is a chance to grow. Talking to new people makes us grow. Experiencing new things and doing things you don't normally do. I always try to challenge myself because I hate having a comfortable and boring life. 

17.) Become richer!!!

      Don't we all want to be richer? Sure (I presume) that we all get our monthly salary (if you work) but I hope I do get a chance to grow my money elsewhere. The idea and opportunity, I hope to have this year! :) 

18.) Lifestyle change. 

      A healthier lifestyle maybe. I know that it has been one of my forever rant that I want to start running but I know that one day I will get there! I hope we'll have more cross fit sessions because it helps me to be more active. Sometimes I get lazy to workout at home. :p

19.) Meet new interesting people, mentors and connections

      I love meeting new clients and people older than me because more than the business that they give me, I love when they share their wisdom to me. I learn so much from people who are much older than me. I love them and hopefully meet more mentors this year. It's one of the things that I appreciate most in my work. Meeting people who are so generous with their knowledge and share them to me.

20.) New life challenges that I wish to surpass

      I love new challenges and I hope never to live a boring day in my life ever again! I hate having boring days. Like today.

I cannot believe I'm growing a year older again in a few days but I'm very thankful for everything He has given me. My life is not perfect but I'm very grateful for it and I think that's what matters most.

A

      

PMS is a fakeng betch

I can't remember the last time I felt like this. My hormones are acting up SO badly that it cannot be compared to any other bad days I've ever had. 

Every morning.......

This and Coffee. My every morning!

LSS of the day. So much emote. Good vibes tho. :>

Divergent and Mondays

1.) I loved the movie and I'm glad that I haven't read the book because then I might be just like my friend, Faith, who read the book and got disappointed with the movie. The book will always just be better than the movie and so I learned my lesson to not read the book first and I'm glad I didn't. In that case, there are no expectations so there will be no disappointments. Don't we all know that disappointments come from expectations. (CHAR)

I really loved the movie and I have kind of high standards (char again) when it comes to liking movies. I don't just like all movies. I find a lot of movies boring and disappointing but this one is good. I rate it 9 stars out of 10. 9 because I didn't have someone to cuddle with during the movie (3rd char). HA HA HA. Honestly, I don't mind watching movies alone but I'm glad I went with my friends this time. I now get why my nephew Andre can't stop obsessing about the movie!!!!!! He wants to watch it again and I think I want to watch it again too. Just like Catching Fire. I was so impressed with the movie I had to watch it twice in the cinema. Heehee. Fangirl here.

2.) Today is Monday and I'm so happy because there are a lot of things to be happy about. :D I can't believe how great law of attraction works for me every.single.time. I was just thinking about how much I wanted to get something that I thought was not going to happen anytime soon but just as I started thinking about it and how much I wanted/needed it, it sure came! I didn't have to look for it. It came knocking at my door. So that's one! I mean the wonder of law of attraction not what I attracted. LOL. It's pretty shallow so no need to talk about it so much!

3.) My legs are so sore which is good because that only means that I had a good workout yesterday. I'm happy because I'm finally doing something about my forever rant and this time, I think I will succeed. :D

4.) I had a weird craving this morning. I'm craving for cold cold beer. I've been wanting to drink since last Saturday night but then I got lazy so nothing happened. Also, I'm trying to cut down my alcohol intake since I'm trying to lose weight. Last night, we all had one bottle of beer each to "celebrate" the start of our first day of "training" together. It was a lot of fun though now that I think of it. hehe I have delayed reaction. Took me almost 24 hours to realize how much fun I had. Anywaaaaay, was craving for beer this morning. Really craving. LIKE I-WANT-TO-DRINK-BEER-SO-BAD kind of craving. I think it's my PMS but it's just so weird that I crave for beer like my liver just couldn't wait for it's reunion with alcohol.

5.) My dinner is served but I'm still full and is procrastinating not to eat it yet but I need to hurry cos I need to leave home in 15mins. I wonder how I'll be able to fit eat, shower, get ready all in 15 mins. Maybe it'll help if I stop blogging. So yeah, I guess this is bye!!

6.) PS. I'm still addicted to Find You by Zedd because it's one of Divergent's soundtrack and just because!!

In a hurry,

Annie

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