You gotta have bad days too

I'm usually in a happy bubble when I'm not pms-ing. I try so hard to be in a good mood everyday like it's my mission to live everyday as if it's my last. As soon as I open my eyes, my mind is focused on doing only the things that will give me good vibes and brush all the bad vibes away but today is not an ordinary day. Today is extra special because as soon as I woke up, I know that today is going to be a bad day and I know it will be.

I believe in law of attraction and I believe on how it works that is why I have accepted that today is going to be a bad day and I'm okay with it. I'm not going to do anything to try to make it better because you gotta have bad days too.

I'm thankful for the bad day that is happening to me today. It gives me so much rage and fire on how unhappy I am with things and is finding ways to find solutions and improvements. You see, being unhappy make me happy. How ironic. 

Being unhappy leads us toward self improvement. My heart is filled with so much emotions that it makes me so unhappy and uncomfortable which only lead me to think "what can I do to improve this?" so today, I decided to take actions on a lot of things that makes me sad and mad. They maybe decisions made on a bad emotion which often is not the best time to make decisions but they are little decisions that are not life changing so I guess it's totally fine to act on it right away. LOL. 

Ranting and being unhappy lead me to having a productive morning. Thank God for this. Definitely something to be thankful for. 

Of course I will do what I do best on my blog, RANT. So I will list down my top rants of the day.

RANTS

1. Waking up late.

I can't believe myself for waking up at 8:15am. I just promised myself last week that I will start waking up early again this week and it's just the first work day of the week yet I woke up at a very unacceptable time. The latest I woke up on a work day this year, I think. Which explains how bad my mood has become. I am so unhappy with myself and is disappointed. I have failed my employers for being such a lazy ass and I have failed myself too.

2.Slow Cebu drivers

Cebuanos are just slow drivers!!!! I don't know what is it with Cebuanos and their driving skills but everyone from Manila noticed this too. My Cebuano friend explained that they are cautious drivers because the streets are small and that there are a lot of motor bikers so they drive slowly to avoid accidents but but but but I cannot accept this!! The lifestyle here is too laid back that it is manifested in their driving skills. 

I'm kind of guilty because when I first came here, my driving skill was also affected. I became a slow and very cautious driver which my sister was so pissed at and my friends from Manila noticed too! Until now, I feel that I have semi adapted the Cebu driving style and I'm thankful for today because I will ditch slow driving and start driving Manila style. LOL. That's what I did today, honked at everyone who were driving so slowly blocking my way to get to my office faster because well... I was so late.

3. Unhappy with things

Personal things that I'm unhappy with that I wish I can publicly rant but I decided I wont because it involves feelings of people I love and I don't want to hurt them when they read it here. Besides, it's their way of doing things I'm very unhappy about and it's totally out of my business. Just being a bitch and bitching about all things available to bitch about on. I should just breathe in, breathe out and let this go. Now that I think about it, I also don't understand why I'm so pissed about this issue. I'm only killing myself by doing this. HEHE but you know!! The bitch has to bitch around. I pity the people who'll get involved in my emotional rut.

4. Expectations leads to disappointments.

'Nuff said.

On a lighter note, I'm back to clean eating and my fitness streak so everything should be fine. :) 

xx,

A

PMS is a fakeng betch

I can't remember the last time I felt like this. My hormones are acting up SO badly that it cannot be compared to any other bad days I've ever had. 

Confessions of a Drama Queen: Social Life Rant

Maybe I should not dwell on it too much but it so much annoys me that I am stuck here living a social life so different from what I was used to. I have always been an extrovert and for the past 2 years, I tried so much to reach out to different kind of people to make friends and meet new acquaintances. I don't know if it's the city or the people in it or the people I meet but I don't see myself fitting in and for the first time in 2 years, I kind of give up already. I wholeheartedly accepted that I am no longer living a sociable life and that I choose to be anti-social and spend weekends at home socializing with my bff through text/call/whatsapp/twitter. It is actually more fun than me trying to go out and socializing with new people who will only judge me for who I am not. It is so easy to judge other people as it is human nature to be judgmental. I know because I myself is guilty of this and I consider myself an average person. I just hate being judged by people for my preferences and for how I am. It makes me sad and mad at the same time. I know that I'm not even supposed to care about those people but I do. But I'll get over it in no time. I just need some drama in my life so I choose to care for now.

The one that got away among other things

For years, I thought that my the one got away was this guy I dated briefly when I was in college. In my mind, we were perfect for each other because he was everything I ever wanted for a boyfriend but the timing was wrong so it did not happen. He didn't exactly tell me he liked me. I didn't exactly tell him I liked him ether. I wish I can say that we both knew how we felt for each other but we never did. I am not the one to assume or jump to conclusion that a guy likes me just by frequently talking to me or asking me out. I'm a little insensitive and unless you tell me upfront that you like me, I will never know because I will never assume. So I never found out. Despite numerous invites out with friends and probably some dates, I never found out if he liked me back as much as I liked him. I never told him but if he was just sensitive enough, he probably knew. We stopped going out for inevitable reasons that i myself wish had control of but my emotions were always too scattered and all over the place that it was also hard for me to understand what I wanted so we stopped going out. No dramas. No anything. We just stopped going out like nothing happened. No heartbreak, no trying to move on. No real emotions were invested but I know that if only I (or anyone) was fragile enough to entertain those feelings, it would have hurt like being hit in the head with a hammer. I'm glad I didn't. I know that if I ever let that happen, it would have hurt me a lot because i liked him a lot.

Yesterday, I realized that that guy was not after all my TOTGA (the one that got away). The feelings were probably too one sided. I know I liked him but I didn't know how he felt for me. There were hints that might probably lead me to thinking that he liked me too but that would probably be assuming too much. It was unfair to him for me to assume something like that.

There's this close friend of mine whom I was so close to that it never occurred to me how compatible we were until yesterday.We were so compatible that it was probably hard for you to think that we weren't an item if you saw us together. Now I understand why our then boy/girlfriends would be so jealous of us and it was because the chemistry was undeniable and it will probably be too tiring to explain why we clicked but we just did. Writing this now kinda hurts my heart a teeny weeny bit. Like someone pinched my heart but not enough to give that much attention but the feeling is just there. I cant even think straight now that I think about it. You know how when you want to write about something and it was perfectly written in your mind how you want to type out the words to explain your feelings but when it's time to type it out the brain just go blank.

Maybe I'll write about this again when my mind feels less pressured. Maybe not. Probably not than yes but whatever. We were perfect for each other but we both got away from each other. This time we both knew what we meant to each other and maybe we were afraid to ruin what we had so we just let each other go because we chose the friendship over the idea of love.

Three years later, I realized that we would have been a perfect good match. The compatibility, you can not hide. It was just there. From what we liked, what we believed in, how we saw things, how we did things, where we went, how we felt, what we believed a perfect relationship was like etc etc. I know what he wanted and I can't say that I was perfect but I would've been.

He said not then but maybe next time. But maybe next time is not even an option anymore. The thought is not even worth entertaining anymore and that's that's where I realized why some relationships just don't work. Because people grow and they just don't fit anymore. Like an old favorite pants that you can't stop wearing until it won't fit anymore. Whatever you do, they just don't fit anymore.

People grow. People outgrow each other. People change because change is inevitable. What we liked before may not be what we like now. What was perfect for us then may not be perfect for us now. As people grow, we change and the only people who stays in our life are those people who loves us unconditionally, change or no change. Those who are willing to accept us despite everything. And this, my friend, is also why relationships break because we have expectations from who we want to be with and we find this person fall into mutual admiration with them and fall in love until one person changes and the other gets frustrated and they fall out of love with each other because they no longer fit the perceived expectation from the other person. (TO BE CONTINUED)

Not all relationships are meant to last forever. Lucky for those who found the one from their first relationship but if you are one of those people like me who got no luck, don't worry, you are not alone. We all feel you.

I'm single and I can't be any happier about it. I kind of cringe a little bit whenever I see people in a relationship especially those in long term relationships. I'm sorry to sound bitter or sound like a bitch but it's just that my idea of a perfect relationship just didn't match with my past relationships. The past 2 relationships I've been to was no different from each other. It's bad to badmouth an ex but I'm not writing to bad mouth them. I'm just writing to express and take off the load off myself. Probably move on from and learn from past relationships. One day, I will look back, read all these and hopefully learn from this.

(The writer is currently experiencing mental block.Please comprehend.)

I want to TRY to not be ME

For once in my life I finally want to do something about my life instead of just ranting all the time. Ranting is boring but most of the time it's what get through us life so thanks for my friends who had been putting up with my random rants mostly work related and mostly about the most non sense stuff about well, hating the world? If that even made sense.

I've been liking to do some things I have never liked to do. For one, I want to start doing exercises. I have been dreading exercise my whole life and now, I finally want to do it. There was only this one time during my senior year in high school that I really gave exercising a chance. If you call dancing your ass off an exercise then yes, that was my only shot at trying to exercise. There are actually quite a lot of things that I want to do that never really liked but is willing to give a chance. I always seem to just stick to what I'm used to do and be boring and not really discovering new things.

Working out: I want to give time to fitness for a lot of reasons with my health as the number 1. I have been feeling a lot of different feelings/ailments that I'm not supposed to feel at such a young age and I'm thinking that maybe it has something to do with my sedentary lifestyle. Since I don't get any exercise at all. I'm guessing that I only do more or less a hundred steps the whole on a normal day. That's just crazy! I don't blame my body for being this weak. MUST DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT.

Watching TV series: I never never never really liked watching tv. Maybe my adhd (not really) has something to do about it but I always get bored watching tv series. The only tv show that I watched from it's season 1 until the end is 90210 and The Carrie Diaries (still waiting or season 2). I know I am missing out on quite a lot of tv series that my friends are always raving about like TVD, PLL, Hannibal (Hi, Sarah) and etc so I'm actually trying to add this past time to the things I could do when I am bored. Since I found out about Youtube and all the amazing videos I can watch in it like makeup tutorials, vlogs, etc, this has been my favorite past time after I finish going through all my social media news feed. Don't judge me for being so nosy. I know you all are too! 

Sneakers: Fit flops is the greatest invention in the slippers/sandals industry. I always resort to wearing it if I don't feel like dressing up or want comfortable foot wear. Hihi.

Blogging: I want to come back to blogging but I want to blog more relevant stuff than my usual rant posts. My blog is such a cloud of negativity. I am not surprised I don't have much hits because who would want to read a blog full of negativity anyway? I want it to have more sense and more of what is really happening in my life and I want it to be more colorful and have more pictures. Out with the Annie last year whose past was so dark and boring. In with the cheerful Annie who always has good news to share! Are you ready? YES I AM.

Taking pictures: I just want to capture more out of everything in pictures. Back in my freshman years in college, my friends and I used to be addicted in taking pictures, even the most randomest pictures, and then we post it on Multiply. I REGRET NOT SAVING ALL MY MULTIPLY PICTURES :( I think I lost half of my college memories in digital with the lost of multiply. I thought I could just go back anytime and just grab or look at it there anytime but I was COMPLETELY wrong. Multiply decided to shut down the whole site and when you go to multiply, it will all just be like this:

Just like Friendster, Multiply took all of our memories, JUST. LIKE. THAT. 

I hope Facebook will never have to face these kinds of problem and that just gave me an idea to personally save all the photos with myself (ofcourse) in it. *mental note* Maybe I should a lot a few days for that. Since we're talking about Facebook, I'm now back on Facebook and I miss chatting with my friends. The reason why I deactivated it was because I was spending too much time in it (not completely this but let's just put it this way) and at times when I tried to go back, I always felt alienated with it like I no longer belonged in it. (DRAMA QUEEN right here) Now that I'm back, I can now chat with my friends again. Especially Princess, my friend from Japan and Marj, my high school friend, who I only get to chat with (most of the time) on Facebook since we are no longer in that stage where we are text-y to each other but Facebook felt fine. Do you get what I mean? Do I even make sense? 

I just wish I get myself a nice point and shoot camera though. I am totally into taking pictures and looking at beautiful photos again. :) I'm not really particular when it comes to gadgets because I don't consider myself techy and I do not know much about cameras so yeah, a nice point and shoot camera will do.

Socialize more: I kinda went through a stage where I didn't like to socialize much and a fun weekend meant staying at home and resting since I was so stressed at work the whole week or pretty much just because that was my routine, I felt so comfortable with it that going out did not sound as exciting at all.  I did not want to go out and socialize because I feared rejection and I feared that Cebuanos wouldn't want to be friends with me or talk to me that much because I did not know how to speak Bisaya. I want to socialize more now and meet new people because people are just so interesting aren't they? I just need to make myself look equally interesting as well. How to do that exactly, I really don't know how. So good luck to me. 

There are quite a few more things that I'm not really into but would like to try to do and see if I get interested to these stuff like:

Play PS3 games and be hooked.

Join fun runs and actually run and not just walk.

Wear sneakers (again) I used to wear a lot of sneakers back in college and I even collected Chuck Taylors back then but I stopped wearing them after college.

Do art?? (maybe?) Not really on this one because I don't have any creative juice in my body

Post blog posts with lots of photos for visual stimulation (CHOS)

BE MORE FUN

Be less self centered. (really. HAHA) 

Be technically advanced

xx,

Annie

I guess all I'm trying to do is to convince myself that I am happy and that nothing can ever make me feel sad because I lift it all to Him to work on my life for a better future and to just go with the flow so that everything will just fall into place according to His plans but sometimes PMS slaps me in the face and ask me to wake up to the realization that I want to belong where I really belong and that's someplace like HOME.

I miss the comfort of my HOME. Not exactly our house but I miss being too comfortable. I miss my old life. I miss my family, my best friend, my boyfriend, my close friends. Sometimes, I do wonder how my life would be like if I didn't move here and just stayed in Manila. What will my everyday be like? What is my work like? What is my weekend like and who I hangout with. Stuff like that intrigues me. I miss having a really close friend around where I can be who I really am and not be afraid to bitch around because we're too close to even care. A friend who I can drag wherever to join me in my ups and downs. I'm just so glad I spent the last days of my stay in Manila with my bff doing just exactly.

I can lose control of myself especially my emotions. I just wish I'm better at handling my emotions more than anything else so that I can control my temper and how I treat the people around me. I want to be likable and always in control and as much as I want to know what to do at all times I know it doesn't work that way. Wisdom comes with experience and that is what I want to have. I always lose control of my emotions like now, I feel so down I just want to shut myself from the world. I know that nobody cares enough but it's just how I feel now. I WANNA SHUT MYSELF OFF FROM THE WORLD. I wish I can just disappear but I still have duties to attend to. It sucks. I know. I give too much importance to myself.

It's March 10, 2013 now and I'm a month and 3 weeks from a Boracay vacation for 5 days. I know it's a little bit too much that's why I haven't asked my boss for a leave yet. I'm just too scared to leave my responsibilities behind and just have a vacation. Either that or I'm just too scared to disappoint my boss that I'll take too long of a leave but I know that that is what I need. I need to get away and spend some time with my really close friend, Sarah, my college block mates and my new found friends whom I have yet to establish a rapport because honestly, I still feel a little awkward around them. I find it hard to fit in a group. My social skills has declined since I graduated college. I'm now officially an awkward wallflower.

I know it's a bit too early but my birthday wish is for my bff to fly over and celebrate it with me because I want to celebrate God's gift of another year with a person I'm really comfortable with and who really understands me who won't get mad if I get a little boring or a little crazy! I just really miss her. hihi.

I still feel a little too emotional now just because this PMS is a bitch and it won't leave me alone. I can't shake this feeling off. UGH. So bye for now. I'll come back when I'm better.

xx,

Annie

The Future

One of the things I'm most scared about is my future. There's something about the future that I keep wanting to know more about yet I'm so scared of it. I guess I'm just one of those people who worry too much about it.

I keep picturing a future that even I, is scared if I will actually be able to fulfill it. I don't ask too much though, I just want a happy family who will be there for me. Doesn't anybody like this?

Karma is a bitch though.

I'm sure that I will have to face the consequences of my actions now and I quote the very popular Filipino saying "Kung ano ang tinanim, yun din ang aanihin".

Just another rant.

GADGETS

I just feel the itch to write something down without anything particular in my mind. I guess sometimes I am just being random.

Random updates:

My Blackberry broke down for the second time since I got it. 

I'm using a Blackberry Torch 9800 and it's a touch and slide phone and one of the down fall of slide phones are the durability of it's flex cable. Mine got broken last year December and it's broken again now. I tried to look for a repair shop here in SM Cebu to have it fixed but they don't have spare parts for it so I will just send my phone to my friend, GH queen, Zel. I will have it sent to her via air freight so she can fix it and send it back to me again.

RANDOM RANT: I feel so incomplete without my Blackberry. I love BBM and I chat with my girlfriends all the time so now I feel extremely weird without it. I have a temporary phone and I like it and all but sometimes I get so frustrated when I text with a keypad instead of a qwerty pad that I just want to throw it away. Been using qwerty phones for almost 5 years I think so it frustrates me when I have to press the freaking keypads but I love to use it when I am driving. It's easier to use for texting than a qwerty phone.


Here's my new phone by the way.

SAMSUNG GT-E1200T

White

I love it's new look. We have a lot of this phone because it's what we use as our company phone since the battery life is so amazing. It can last for 3 to 4 days before the battery goes empty. Perfect for the drivers who go out of town.Plus, it's so cheap. It's only PHP 899 so I also got one for me when I went to SM yesterday. It's actually the company's extra cellphone and I'm just borrowing it until my Blackberry gets fixed.

Hi Zel, please help me get it fixed ASAP.

Speaking of gadgets. I randomly bought an iTouch 4 two weeks ago. I just thought I want to call my friends and my family back home using Face Time so I went in and bought one just like that. I'm not fond of buying new gadgets but for this time, I did not bother to give it much thought because I will just end up not buying it. I only bought an 8gb since I only plan to use it for Face Time. It's with me for two weeks now and it still doesn't have any songs or games in it but I do have some of the most basic apps I use frequently like Twitter, Facebook, Instagram and the like.

I know that this is not a good time to buy an iTouch because the new iTouch 5 is releasing soon (if it's not released yet) but I just couldn't wait. I'll just sell my old new iTouch if I ever decide to get the new iTouch or an iPhone 5.

iTouch 5th gen

the colors are so cute.

Doesn't it looks sooooooo nice? It looks so sleek and chic. I love the green color! If you are here for the technical stuff, just forget it because I do not have any idea on the specs. I'm just after how it looks. Yes, I'm one of those people who buy gadgets just because it looks nice. I'm the most un-techy person ever.

Since I got my iTouch, I have been trying to convince my girlfriend soulmate close friend, Sarah to buy one so we can video chat through Face Time and I'm super glad she bought an iPad yesterday. So now that we cannot "BBM", we "iMessage" and "Face Time" each other. I type BBM, iMessgae and Face Time like they are verbs but you get what I mean. ;)

Sarah and I "Face Time-ing"

I am still currently addicted to Face Time. So if ever you have Face Time and is bored (and is a friend of mine), call me! YAY! 

Going back to Blackberry, I'm actually quite discouraged with Blackberry and is thinking of switching to iPhone 5 but I cannot imagine my life without it. I love my Blackberry and I think all the other BB users understand me, or not. It's just that my social life is surrounded around it. 

THINGS I WILL MISS:

1.) Chatting with my friends Tiff and Zel about the most random things happening to us. 

2.) Sending voice notes to Sarah, Jolo and Zel. 

3.) Receiving emails through my phone faster than I check my email in my PC.

4.) Updating pictures in BBM whenever I feel like camwhoring. (This seldom happens though.)

5.) All my personal and work contacts are in my phone!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 

Please forgive me but I will post some vain pictures of yours truly I took using the front camera of my new toy (iTouch).

FRINGED! 

Had my hair cut almost 2 weeks ago. Haven't had my hair cut for almost a year before this one. Decided at the last minute that I want a fringe so I asked the stylist to give me one. It's in an awkward stage now where it doesn't look good I don't know what to do with it when I'm sweaty. (hihi) It's supposed to be full bangs but I just put it sideways since I kind of feel awkward when it covers my forehead and cover my eyes.

A bit too made up for work. :p

I just wear a head band to put up my awkward fringe. :p Been taking time to apply make up at work because oddly, I feel that I work better if I feel like I look better. It enhances my work performance. WEIRD. There must be some psychological explanation to this.

Enough randomness. 

Bye.

Annie

Crazy Crazy

When was the last time I had free time in my hands to actually write something worth reading? I don't remember. But this one is an exception. I'm not supposed to blog right now, I'm supposed to finish the heaps load of work I'm piled with but instead I am here writing since I can't concentrate on work. I'm having a serious mental block right now. I do not know where to start because I'm just preoccupied with a lot of stuff right now. Plus I'm a bit pressured because my sister's coming over to check the works I should be finished by now. GAAAH!

Not that i'm not doing anything at work. It's just that there are so much stuff to do I can't even start with the other stuff I need to finish. :|

Blahblahblah totally ranting.

My best friend, Mallow came here to visit last Sunday to Wednesday and it felt like the best four days of my life. Eksaherada. Maybe I just miss having friends around. I miss going out at night and just hanging out. I am so burnt out from work lately.

What the fuck is wrong with me? Seriously?

I think something is seriously wrong with me. Took the weekend off by going to the beach with my friend Nica and her cousins but all the time I was dreaming of work. SERIOUSLY ALL THE TIME. I dream of work while taking my afternoon naps and at night I still dream about work. OMG.

It's not fun at all. :(

Random Rants: Bye Caps and Sore Throat

My sister is leaving in a few hours and I cant be any more sad. She has been my company for a month and a half and we've been partners in crime. I cant wait to spend time with her again. Time that's long enough to actually makes it hard to leave and not just my random visit here and there. Oh well. The not-so-perks of living away from your family.

I am used to the fact that I am almost always alone and I'm actually not used to having a parent around anymore but being around your family still feels different. This is totally seperation anxiety.

My sister came here with a goal and I have never been so proud of her for what she have achieved. Grabe! Three thumbs up to her for being able to keep both her eyes on the prize. She's not reached her goal yet but she is definitely on her way there. A bit far yet, but definitely, I tell you, she'll get there. With the dedication she showed, I never respected her this much and all I want is for her to be happy all the time even if her happiness includes having new things all the time. Yes, she is kinda materialistic, I think, and she will surely hate me for this. :p But I want you to know that if only I am well off, I will give you what you want. Right now, I'm still so far to being there so just stop sulking every other hour and grow up first, okay? To cut the long story short, I love you. Good luck in college. Always keep in touch with me. I will miss you.

It doesn't help that writing this is making me cry because it makes my already sore throat hurts more. Ugh. I hate having sore throats. It leads you to getting all kind of illness. Last time I checked, I got hospitalized for a sore throat gone bad. :s yikes!

What do I do?? I'm panicking. Aside from the usual fever it will give you on the first few days, I now have to nurse my random headaches, one of which is i am currently feeling. Haaay. Life. I hate this feeling. I hate having to worry about my sore throat getting worse. I dont know what to do to make it go away. I've religiously been drinking Ki Pa Koa  Pei Pa Koa(chinese medicine) and gargling water with salt but it's still there. I have also been drinking lots of warm water but somehow it doesnt get better. My head feels heavy and my throat is sore. I am totally ranting now and is repeating myself endlessly and I am aware of that, mind you.

Busy Bee

I have been very busy lately. Like crazy busy. Sometimes I wish I can split my body into three so I can attend to all my duties at the same time.

Woke up early today because I had a really bad dream. Hay. I hate bad dreams. It fucks up my mornings.

3 more days til my birthday and honestly, I don't feel like it. With all the things happening around me, I just can't get myself to think that it's my birthday in a few days or maybe it's like this if you are growing older. Birthdays used to be big deals for my younger self. I wanted to always celebrate it with a party but right now, I guess I want to celebrate it by getting away to Bora.

I still don't know if I can make it. I wish I can. I spent a lot for that trip. Okay not a lot, but I already paid for my tickets and accommodations. I just can't afford to let go of my money just like that. It'll hurt me!! I'm just too kuripot to not think of the money I already spent. Gee.

Oh well. I guess that's how life is. You have to sacrifice things. Oh well papel, I pray that I will still be able to go to Boracay despite the busy schedules in my work. x.x

PS: Zel, if you are reading this and if I did not make it, please promise me you'll still love me no matter what. I don't want to fail you. Hope you understand. (CHOS)

xx,

Annie

I will act like it never happened

Like I can forget all the things that hurt overnight.

I wish our brain acts like computers, delete bad memories, save happy ones, edit some thoughts.

Somebody invent this, please?

Binge-ing is BAD

If there is one thing I want you to know about diet it will be that, Binge-ing is bad. It is the mortal enemy of diet. If we are only wiser than our own appetite and our minds that directs us what to do when we feel like binge-ing then we now live in a world full of sexy people. ;) It is so good while you're at it but the moment you try to stop, you will notice how hard it is for you to actually stop and when you do, you feel so bad after it. Like suck-y bad.

And that's actually how I feel right now. Sucky bad. 

xx,

Annie

First Ever Follower

Blogger or blogspot blogs do have "join me" buttons and I want to say hi to my first ever follower who follows my blog through google friend connect. Hi to Char! She's one of my closest friend. I love you.:* Check out her blog here.

Follow me through google friend connected to keep updated with my posts. Thanks in advance.

No formal post tonight I'm feeling sick and really restless. X.X

See you again soon.

xx,

Annie