Wrath of People in Social Media

and why some other people think they are too cool for it.

People think they are too cool for the social media now. I really hate social media. I really do.

People have made up different rules of what to do and what not to do in social media and now you don't really know what to post and what not to post anymore. Whatever happened to the times when people start hyping about the newly discovered social media and everyone was so excited to share albums at (then) Multiply! I remember when almost everyone in class has their own camera so we can just take pictures of us everyday and share it on Multiply but now it is so uncool for you to do that anymore. Like people think you're crazy for doing this. Like you can't do that anymore because people will think you are too bored for sharing all your stuff in the social media. I am guilty of this!! I tend to judge people who overly post collages (note: collages not just pictures) of them on the same event on Instagram. My point here is that it is so easy to judge other people for what they are doing because we think we are too cool for those kinds of things that I think we might someday be guilty of doing also.

RANDOM RANTING AGAIN

xx,

Annie

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Lego House - Ed Sheeran

I'm gonna pick up the pieces and build a lego house. If things go wrong you can knock it down.

Song of the day.

xx,

Annie

Everything has Changed

This song is just so spot on. Exactly how I am feeling now.

Too fragile

This is all so new to me. I still get really scared. The feeling is so new, so fresh, so unknown. I didn't know I'll feel this way about it. I didn't know I had it in me to feel this way about it. This feeling that you want to start things right in the fear of f*cking things up. I like how it feels now and I don't want to rush into things. I'm just not ready to move on from this fleeting moment. I don't want to step up the game just yet with the fear of ruining what we have at this moment. It's too scary. Too fragile. Too fragile.

Confessions of a Drama Queen: Social Life Rant

Maybe I should not dwell on it too much but it so much annoys me that I am stuck here living a social life so different from what I was used to. I have always been an extrovert and for the past 2 years, I tried so much to reach out to different kind of people to make friends and meet new acquaintances. I don't know if it's the city or the people in it or the people I meet but I don't see myself fitting in and for the first time in 2 years, I kind of give up already. I wholeheartedly accepted that I am no longer living a sociable life and that I choose to be anti-social and spend weekends at home socializing with my bff through text/call/whatsapp/twitter. It is actually more fun than me trying to go out and socializing with new people who will only judge me for who I am not. It is so easy to judge other people as it is human nature to be judgmental. I know because I myself is guilty of this and I consider myself an average person. I just hate being judged by people for my preferences and for how I am. It makes me sad and mad at the same time. I know that I'm not even supposed to care about those people but I do. But I'll get over it in no time. I just need some drama in my life so I choose to care for now.

Unusual Craving and a Possible Addiction

I find myself craving for coffee everyday for a week now. It all started midweek last week when I slept late and woke up feeling very tiresome. I had to grab a grande white choco mocha from Starbucks to save myself from that state of calamity and saved I was. I was so happy with my instant recharge that I found myself craving for another cup the next day. The craving was so strong I had to get out of my way to get myself another cup but I got one in venti this time. I was so scared to get addicted to Starbucks' white choco mocha because I obviously wouldn't want to buy myself a cup everyday. I'd like to think I can't afford it. To spend for an overpriced cup of coffee is okay once in a while because let's admit it, they really taste better than the instant coffee available in the market but everyday is just too much.

What's up with this rant anyway? I find it weird that I always grab for a cup of instant coffee around snack time in the morning near lunch. Maybe it's my way to curb my appetite for lunch but hey it works! I'm just bothered by the amount of empty calories that I take in before lunch time but it really works for me. I can only finish half of my lunch when I used to be still really hungry after I finish my lunch. I just have to my a decent instant decaf coffee and low fat milk to cut off on the calories from the packets of instant coffee with gazillion sugars. I just really hate it when I drink empty calories I didn't even really enjoy.

So am I getting addicted to coffee or am I just looking for a sweet substitute? Maybe the latter but I don't really mind. What a useless rant. KBYE

xx,

ANNIE

The truth is......

I still believe in love. Every girl does. I still wait for the one who will be smitten by my presence and who will do everything to sweep me off my feet. Right now, I may have lost all hope in finding the one but I still believe that one day, he will come to my life and let me realize why it never worked out with other people. The truth is there's a hopeless romantic inside me waiting to come out of its shell.

Someone who I will care enough for to hurt me and fight for. Someone worthy. I might be a little too idealistic but I know that one day I will meet him.

xx,

Annie

The one that got away among other things

For years, I thought that my the one got away was this guy I dated briefly when I was in college. In my mind, we were perfect for each other because he was everything I ever wanted for a boyfriend but the timing was wrong so it did not happen. He didn't exactly tell me he liked me. I didn't exactly tell him I liked him ether. I wish I can say that we both knew how we felt for each other but we never did. I am not the one to assume or jump to conclusion that a guy likes me just by frequently talking to me or asking me out. I'm a little insensitive and unless you tell me upfront that you like me, I will never know because I will never assume. So I never found out. Despite numerous invites out with friends and probably some dates, I never found out if he liked me back as much as I liked him. I never told him but if he was just sensitive enough, he probably knew. We stopped going out for inevitable reasons that i myself wish had control of but my emotions were always too scattered and all over the place that it was also hard for me to understand what I wanted so we stopped going out. No dramas. No anything. We just stopped going out like nothing happened. No heartbreak, no trying to move on. No real emotions were invested but I know that if only I (or anyone) was fragile enough to entertain those feelings, it would have hurt like being hit in the head with a hammer. I'm glad I didn't. I know that if I ever let that happen, it would have hurt me a lot because i liked him a lot.

Yesterday, I realized that that guy was not after all my TOTGA (the one that got away). The feelings were probably too one sided. I know I liked him but I didn't know how he felt for me. There were hints that might probably lead me to thinking that he liked me too but that would probably be assuming too much. It was unfair to him for me to assume something like that.

There's this close friend of mine whom I was so close to that it never occurred to me how compatible we were until yesterday.We were so compatible that it was probably hard for you to think that we weren't an item if you saw us together. Now I understand why our then boy/girlfriends would be so jealous of us and it was because the chemistry was undeniable and it will probably be too tiring to explain why we clicked but we just did. Writing this now kinda hurts my heart a teeny weeny bit. Like someone pinched my heart but not enough to give that much attention but the feeling is just there. I cant even think straight now that I think about it. You know how when you want to write about something and it was perfectly written in your mind how you want to type out the words to explain your feelings but when it's time to type it out the brain just go blank.

Maybe I'll write about this again when my mind feels less pressured. Maybe not. Probably not than yes but whatever. We were perfect for each other but we both got away from each other. This time we both knew what we meant to each other and maybe we were afraid to ruin what we had so we just let each other go because we chose the friendship over the idea of love.

Three years later, I realized that we would have been a perfect good match. The compatibility, you can not hide. It was just there. From what we liked, what we believed in, how we saw things, how we did things, where we went, how we felt, what we believed a perfect relationship was like etc etc. I know what he wanted and I can't say that I was perfect but I would've been.

He said not then but maybe next time. But maybe next time is not even an option anymore. The thought is not even worth entertaining anymore and that's that's where I realized why some relationships just don't work. Because people grow and they just don't fit anymore. Like an old favorite pants that you can't stop wearing until it won't fit anymore. Whatever you do, they just don't fit anymore.

People grow. People outgrow each other. People change because change is inevitable. What we liked before may not be what we like now. What was perfect for us then may not be perfect for us now. As people grow, we change and the only people who stays in our life are those people who loves us unconditionally, change or no change. Those who are willing to accept us despite everything. And this, my friend, is also why relationships break because we have expectations from who we want to be with and we find this person fall into mutual admiration with them and fall in love until one person changes and the other gets frustrated and they fall out of love with each other because they no longer fit the perceived expectation from the other person. (TO BE CONTINUED)

Not all relationships are meant to last forever. Lucky for those who found the one from their first relationship but if you are one of those people like me who got no luck, don't worry, you are not alone. We all feel you.

I'm single and I can't be any happier about it. I kind of cringe a little bit whenever I see people in a relationship especially those in long term relationships. I'm sorry to sound bitter or sound like a bitch but it's just that my idea of a perfect relationship just didn't match with my past relationships. The past 2 relationships I've been to was no different from each other. It's bad to badmouth an ex but I'm not writing to bad mouth them. I'm just writing to express and take off the load off myself. Probably move on from and learn from past relationships. One day, I will look back, read all these and hopefully learn from this.

(The writer is currently experiencing mental block.Please comprehend.)

Lost Ideas

I had two blog post ideas when I hit log in but then my thoughts got lost like a heart drawn in the sand that got washed out by the sea when I tried to multitask. oh gosh. Me and my forgetful mind. Fuck this.

16 Things To Start Doing For A Day That Ends As Well As It Starts

by Brianna Wiest

“There is nowhere morning does not go.”
― Leah Hager Cohen

I’m not a morning person, but I will tell you, the way you start your day is the way you will carry through, and it will affect a lot of things. Honestly, I’m a sleep/nap aficionado and so before I actually started doing these things I wouldn’t even hear of it because nothing could be better than getting to sleep those extra few minutes. But it’s really not true. It’s just not. These little things are, I would say, crucial for starting yourself out on the right foot, and without fail, the more I’ve done them, the better I feel and the more productive I am. 

1. Clean your living space every night. It personally helps me sleep better, but it’s also so much better to wake up in the morning and be able to focus on what needs your attention, not the clutter on your floor that you trip over while getting ready.

2. Clean your work space first thing in the morning. I am a big believer in the idea that the space in which you work affects not only the quality of it, but the quality of your day as well. Aside from surrounding your desk/wherever you work with little things that make it seem less like a cold cubicle and more like a cozy little alcove, the more you’re going to feel relaxed, and the more energy you’ll be able to devote to doing other things.

3. Lay out everything the night before. Pick your clothes and try them on, pack your bag(s), write down what you can’t forget for the next day so you can go to bed without them on your mind. Put out your coffee cup in the kitchen and lay your keys next to them. It takes seconds to do and could save you a huge hassle in the morning.

4. Expand on that list of things you need to do for the day. It doesn’t matter how grandiose or simple they are. Check them off as you do them. It makes you feel accomplished, and gives you more motivation to keep going.

5. Wake up earlier, obviously. I personally do it because it gives me time to do things like have breakfast in bed while reading something. It sounds so luxurious and privileged but it’s really not, it’s just a matter of having enough discipline not to hit snooze again and being able to infuse your life with the beautiful little things that should happen more than once in a while.

6. Open your blinds and curtains before you go to bed, so the sun comes through in the morning.

7. Turn off that horrid beeping alarm on your phone and make it your favorite song, or something else that’s more peaceful and less jarring than “Alarm” on your iPhone.

8. Actually get enough sleep to not be miserable in the morning.

9. Stop taking electronics to bed. You look at them all day every day. It’s time to give your brain and your eyes a rest. Read books that aren’t electronic. Just lay there and breathe out the crappy things that happened that day. Learn how to calm yourself down enough to lull yourself to sleep.

10. Drink a glass of water when you first wake up.

11. Make your morning routine more efficient. 2-in-1 products, hairdryers that are a higher voltage, big fluffy towels, a simple makeup routine so you can be in and out of the bathroom in 5 minutes. I suppose this applies to women more than men (or some men, I don’t judge) but overall, any makeup/hair routine that takes longer than a half hour in the morning probably isn’t worth it.

12. Move around. An intense workout is not feasible for all of us. Seriously, getting up hours earlier than you would to go to the gym just isn’t something everyone can manage doing. But you can stretch yourself out on the floor. You can take 10 minutes to go for a walk and pick up coffee if you feel like you need a reason to do so. You may call it pointless but it’s not. It gets you moving.

13. Be excited for something at the end of the day. Make plans with a friend or for yourself, look up a new recipe for dinner or plan to make an old favorite, or even just promise yourself a big glass of wine when you get home. It’s something to keep you moving even as your energy slows down with the day.

14. Always check the weather. I have an app that texts me if it’s going to rain, and at what time. Figure it out the night before and pack your umbrella.

15. Take off your headphones on your commute and talk to people, or sit with yourself, or read a book, if you aren’t driving of course. I’ve tried this and I find myself so much calmer and happier if I do so.

16. Do little things to make other people happy. Leave your partner coffee by the side of the bed. Text people good morning. Today my little brother came by the side of my bed and sighed and said well, I’m leaving for the day, I have to go to pre-school, so I’ll see you tonight, and he kissed my face like four times. It was the best wake up anybody could ask for. 

Copied and pasted here for my future reference since I found this very useful! Original article from Thought Catalog.

Last Week: First week of September

I made a pledge to myself to LIVE. I refuse to just exist. So starting thi sSeptember, I will make sure to make my life more interesting than how I have lived my life for the past 23 years. I want to try new things and gain a lot of experiences. I want to live a "YOLO" (You Only Live Once) life. Not that I'll be wasting my time getting drunk on alcohol and being wasted not remembering how last night went but I will grab at any chance to LIVE.

This relates to all aspect of my life be it personal, work, social, physical, emotional, psychological, etc etc. My point is that I want to live and try everything before the time comes that I won't be able to do these things anymore. What age more appropriate to do these stuff than now.

I will list down the things I did weekly here in my blog so that one day I can look back and remember what i did in the past and if I was content with the things I did or what else I wanted to do to stop living a routinary lifestyle.

Last week

Sunday (August 25) - Had lunch a Cafe Sarree with the family and impromptu photoshoot. We took a lot of photos that were so nice it made my heart so happy! Had champorado for snack!

Monday (August 26) Bruncher (Breakfast, lunch and dinner) with the family at Tinderbox. Ordered so much that we were surprised with the bill. Went to look at the lot for the future house! The view was breath taking we were all so excited to move to the new "place". We are a little bit too excited because the lot is not even for sale yet.

Tuesday (August 27) - Went out with my client from Manila. Ate dinner at Phat Pho then drinks at Barcode. Saw my friend whom I haven't seen for a year.

Wednesday (August 28) - Went out with the same client for drinks because he had dinner. Had facial appointment and while killing time I decided to have my hair cut. Drinks at Politics.

Thursday (August 29) - Met up again with my client. It's his last night tonight! Had dinner at a cafe. Ordered my ever favorite Buttermilk Fried Chicken with biscuits and gravy. I swear to the constellations that this is my ultimate favorite food as of the moment. We were also with my client's steel supplier. Drinks at Distillery after. By this day, I was already super tired from all the going out at night that I was really tired and sleepy already at 12mn and after 2 amaretto sours. I love amaretto sour! Distillery have pretty nice amaretto sours.

Friday (August 30) - Stayed home to get my much awaited rest night. Slept early!

Saturday (August 31) - Dinner at Mr India with Emmie, Stan, Vanna and JV plus Jon this time. Went to La Vie Parisienne only to find that the place was full so Emmie just bought pastries and we went to IT park to look for a place. All the other places were full and we ended up in Irie. Had one drink before I met up with Val. Val and I went to Dozo to get my new favorite drink, the GPS! We wouldve went to Cable car but the place was packed. Went home at 1am because we wanted to just chill and we're not up for staying out too late.

Sunday (September 1) - Slept in til 12nn reading Why Men Love Bitches in between waking up, reading, falling asleep then waking up and reading again then falling asleep again. Had lunch at Luy's Classic Tea house. Went to S&R after then watched Conjuring at home with the family. Conjuring is too mainstream. I don't get what the hype was all about. It wasn't even scary at all. Had massage with the best masseur, Cleo! What a great night ender!

Monday (September 2) - Today should be the first day of my fitness week but I ended up talking to my best friend on the phone for 2 hours. I miss her so much. Planned to go out for drinks only to end up eating dinner at Phat Pho then grabbed a drink at Dozo then frozen brazo at La Marea after. So much for dieting.

Tuesday (September 3) - Spent the night at my room watching The Devil Wears Prada, (still) reading Why Men Love Bitches and watching Friends with Benefits.

Wednesday (September 4) - Went to Ayala after work to eat Champorado at Tablea! They have the yummiest champorado ever. I'm not even exaggerating. Pigged out the whole day and so I promised Sarah that I will diet the next day and I put our friendship at stake by telling her our friendship will be over if I pig out today. Which is effective because every time I think of food, I remember her and how our friendship means to me. BWAHAHA.

I wish to fill these updates with more workout updates which as of the moment have none. I hope I will be so obsessed with fitness that it'll be all I ever talk about.

Everything that downs me makes me wanna fly ☁

In such a happy bubble!

xx,

Annie

Short hair relief

Disclaimer: This is a very narcissistic post. Very self serving and self centered. You can choose not read it to save yourself from the annoyance you're about to get but if you love me then okay, read on. mwah mwah! :*

Over due haircut. I've been thinking of doing something about my hair for the longest time and I only had the chance to finally cut it last Wednesday when I was in SM waiting to meet up with client after dinner. I went to the mall after work to have my facial and I couldn't wear make up that night so I didn't feel pretty. My face was bare, hair was messy, roots were showing up, face was too big, so on and so forth. I can tell you what more ugly things I can say about myself and the list goes on forever. My hair was really messy because I tied it up in a bun and couldn't wear it down. Going out with no makeup and my hair in a bun made me feel uncomfortable and unprofessional like I didn't put enough effort to look presentable so I decided to have my hair cut! It wasn't as impulsive though because I have been thinking about this haircut and plan to have my hair permed for almost a month now. In fact, I already scheduled my hair cut at a salon but I missed it because I got stuck in traffic. :/ Back to the messy hair predicament, I had no idea what hair cut I was aiming for. I just know that I was tired of my very long straight hair that I have been sporting for the past 3 years and it came to a point where I didn't know what to do to my hair anymore. I knew I had to cut it short. I wanted to see the difference in length.

When I entered, the hairstylist welcomed me and asked me what I want so I said I want to cut my hair short and I want my hair to be like hers. Her hair was ZOMG so nicely done!! The color was so nice I could have asked her to dye my hair that color if it wasn't already late. I asked the hairstylist about perming my hair and to my disappointment, they said that my hair is too light to be permed. It'll be too light to hold the curls and will easily lose the hold of my curls. So I just asked about touching up my roots and she said that my roots are too little to be touched up. I kinda felt relieved because I have been obsessing about my roots every time I look at the mirror. The only reason why I didn't want to colour my hair was because of the awkward stages of having to deal with the evil roots and I'm exactly at that stage now! It's my first time to have my hair coloured by the way so I'm basically a noob!

Long story short, I decided that I want my hair shoulder length and full bangs because my bangs was being awkward where it doesn't know if it's gonna be side or full. After haircut, I just had to contour my cheeks because it looks better in photos. hihi. I wasn't happy with what I was wearing so I also bought a top! And VOILA! I felt so fresh and almost felt like a different person. I felt so happy like it was the best decision I did that day. blahblahblahblahblah I felt more confident and self worth increased by 80%! So girls, if you feel down and ugly and/or depressed, I now understand why people find it necessary to cut their hair after a breakup. It's an instant pick me upper and I have never felt more confident in my life than I do now and I feel like I want to do a lot more to improve physically! This is such a shallow post! lol. Please forgive me!

Thanks guys for reading this very blabby post.

Face of the day:

bare face with no foundation or anything
cream eyeliner
mascara
cheeks contour
lip cream in NYX Addis Ababa (my ultimate favorite!)

xx,


Annie

Prediction for September

Two more days until September and already I am feeling so giddy about this month. September will be my "ME" month. I'm going to make it a point to really give myself importance and stop seeking for other people's approval. I want to go back to being my old self who was happy spending pretty much all the time with herself. I have been going out so much that-- this is kind of histrionic-- but I kinda miss myself. I know some people will think how is it even possible to miss yourself but I feel like I do. I need my down time or me time to keep me sane and I haven't had a decent "ME" time for 2 months.

My me time includes having to spend weekends at home alone and read books or not. HAHA Ideally, I want it to be spent that way. I love reading books and I'm in love with the idea of it but I never really get to finish my books anymore unless I get really excited about it and spend the next 4-8 hours really boring myself into the book until I finish it. Now that I recently bought an iPad mini, gave me MORE reasons to be in love with the idea of spending more alone time reading books while sipping a cup of tea in a secluded coffee shop.When in reality, I'll just be in my pjs lying down while reading ebooks and bugging my friend, Sarah, once in every 5 minutes maybe and falling asleep maybe 10 minutes after which is a complete fail. I can't even finish one book. I haven't even finished one book since that iPad mini laid in my hands. I'm either too sleepy or too tired for it so I really need to make time for it.

This month, I promise to focus on myself and with what I want to improve myself physically and i don't know, improve my attitude and outlook maybe? I won't lie and say I will do some meditations and yoga and other idealistic stuff to find "inner peace" because those stuff really bore me. I can only wish to be that girl who goes to yoga every after work to stretch and be flexible and be relaxed but I can't see myself doing that for now. I can't even stand one yoga class which is the reason why I hate it (for now. not closing any doors to it. I still want to be that girl.)

This month, the games will change. Since I read this book, my point of view changed so much. It made me realize what I have been doing. I'm not exactly saying that what I did was wrong because at that moment, it's what I wanted to do and how I wanted to play my cards but after reading this book, it suddenly changed my point of view and my perception about dating and guys or just about guys. Not necessarily dating guys but guys generally.

Year 2012 has been a little boring for my personal life and exciting for my career. I can say that this year just keeps getting more interesting. It had never been exciting and I'm looking forward to everything that will happen. One month at a time. Sometimes I hate myself for being so future oriented. Like I always worry about my future that sometimes I forget to live in the present. Sometimes I look forward so much into the future that it's all I do. Look forward to it. This month, I will make it a point to live in the moment so I can finally act on my dreams. 

Also, I recently did a social media cleansing (Sarah"s words) because I've been so hooked to it I didn't realize it was greatly affecting how I live my life. I deleted my wechat, whatsapp and line to decrease the number of social media platforms I'm engaging myself into. I left my viber because I still want to take a little advantage of technology and I think Viber is perfect because it's a little sucky for me to be addicted to it given that it ALWAYS crash and hang on my phone. This always happens and I'm not even exaggerating.

I would also like to share to you guys that law of attraction works almost like a miracle to me. Sometimes it's getting crazy! Even the littlest unimportant things I set my mind into happens! God is so good I'm so spoiled by him. I love you, God and I will never stop loving you. Alam mo yan! 

xx,

Annie

August: Reflection Month

I woke up in such a good mood today. EXTRA GOOD I must say. You may think that this is an ordinary day but this is no ordinary day for me. Nothing special happening or no big event to attend to, no big client meeting of some sort or what but immediately, I know that this day is no ordinary day. Today, I'm happy.

The moment I opened my eyes, i know that it's not an ordinary day. I woke up in such a good mood with no feeling of lack of sleep. Went straight for shower then fixed myself, got dressed, applied make up - which I don't usually have extra time to do - then had breakfast which was very yummy! I had oatmeal for breakfast which is unusual so I guess this is also one factor why I am in such a good mood. Today is not an ordinary day. Today is very special for me.

God is so good. I cant stop being thankful to Him and for Him for He never fails to lead me back to where He wants me to go. He never judge me for being who I am and for who I am not. He knows that I will fall down or be uninspired but He leads me back to the right path through the people around me or sometimes, he just works wonders by giving me beautiful days like today to appreciate all the things He have given me.

Looking back, I never imagined my life to be the way it is now. It's so different from what I have envisioned but THIS IS ALL I EVER WANTED. I am exactly where I want to be. Not really the way I imagined it but better opportunities. See? He always has His ways to give us what we want and what we deserve.

He keeps blessing me so much more than I think I deserve. I'm just really thankful for:
(1) I feel so blessed to have a perfect best friend  (hi, Sarah!) who I can't stop expressing my love to everyday (creepy).
(2) My sister Wuns whom I can never stop being thankful to God for having. She is just the bestest! Been living with her for 2 years now and I can't stress enough how lucky I am to have a sister like her who acts as my second mom and who loves me for me and for being patient with me. CANT THANK GOD ENOUGH.
(3) My family here who I feel so comfortable with now that I don't feel home sicked anymore!
(4) Allan, my friend who keeps inspiring me from Day 1. He taught me all about the law of attraction and I dont know when I started believing in it (THE SECRET) but my life just keeps getting better everyday ever since. Allan, continue inspiring other people! Whenever I'm having a very good day, I always remember him (creepy or what?) not because I am in love with him but mainly because I know that he will understand me. Being happy for no reason and being thankful for God's gift everyday and I always try to let him know that I'm having a good day and it's because he taught me about it that I am living in such a happy life.
(5) My job.
(6) My life.
(7) Myself. (LOL)
(8) Living in Cebu
(9) having new friends
(10) Getting closer to my friends
(11) My family back home
(12) My old friends
and the list can go on and on and I don't think it will ever end. I'm thankful for everything that's happening in my life and I just can't wait to live the life God wants me to live. I will do my best to achieve it and hopefully to inspire other people too.

I have been side tracked with my priorities this month of August but I'm so glad to have a little break. At least now I know how it feels and I don't ever want to go back in that position ever again.

POSITIVITY all the way.

Hope you, reader, will also have a good day. Be inspired.

xx,

Annie

Exactly how Im feeling now.

When I first listened to the song, I felt like I couldn't relate to the song. I wanted to experience the road to THERE. I wanted to experience all the hard work and the experience and gain wisdom but now I just feel like this song is the perfect song to explain how I'm feeling. I'm just so tired and so out of sync. I feel like I just want to have fun and enjoy youth and life. I feel a sense of panic that I feel this way though. Need to get back on track.

xx,

Annie

I'm thankful for July

July has got to be one of the best if not the best month of the year 2013 for me. It has opened a lot of opportunities for me to live, love and learn. It was my month and I can't wait to live the rest of the year like this.

To thank July for that awesome month, I'll be blogging all the memorable things that happened for that whole month. I love/hate blogging. I love blogging random things but hate updating it with complete photos of how my everyday went but July deserves those kind of blog posts so that one day I can look back and be reminded to not waste any moment and LIVE.

It's the month where I felt how happy it is to live life care free and how refreshing it is to be single and happy. It's the month where I just let myself be myself and ate anything I want without feeling guilty. Therefore, without doing it on purpose I consumed an excess of frozen brazo de mercedes and cripy patas this month. It's just now that I am sorting out my photos that I realize this. Ohwell, my tummy was happy but it's now suffering (if you know what I mean).

July opened my eyes to the world. July gave me opportunities to know who my real friends are and who the fake friends are or just who the unhealthy friends are, reunite with old friends and meet new people (not necessarily new friends) who helped me a lot and has inspired me to do so much for my future. I love meeting new people who helps me see what I really should be doing in my life and where do I really want to be in the years to come. I'm glad to have met this client who brought me to around and taught me things. I know this is God's way of orchestrating my life through other people. I love how God never fails to guide me. He is always there for me. I can't thank Him enough. I'm not the religious nor the spiritual type but I know who to give credits to for my accomplishments.

AWESOME JULY IN A NUTSHELL 

From left to right, top to bottom:

1. Met Noe Mae Villagonzalo of COLORismyweaponn when Say visited Cebu for an Avon event.
2. Met Say again for her one day visit to Cebu.
3. Wong, Sarah and I at Centerstage, Tomas Morato.
4. I, Sarah and Pao at Pao's birthday celebration.
5. Lovers peg in Movenpick.
6. Toblerone torte (?) at Mom and Tina's.
7. Paella at Mom and Tina's
8. Frozen Brazo de Mercedes at Mom and Tina's
9. Eggs Florentine @ Tinderbox
10. Fresh steamed oysters from Ponsyong's by Breakthrough at Iloilo. The best oysters!
 11-16. Sarah and moi <3<3<3
17. Me, Val, belle and Sarah at Quest hotel's pool.
18. us 4 again at Movenpick
19. Us 4 again, standing up this time.
20. Me at Henry hotel's lobby.
21. Me, Sarah and Timmy at Mom and Tina's
22. Annie and Jolo at Prive
23. Sarah, Jolo, I, Charles and Derek (was cut off in the photo. sorry :3) at GH
24. Sarah, Jolo and I in the car on the way home!
25. Mallow and I @ Prive


Awesome month is awesome!


xx,


Annie

On repeat over and over again

5 constant rants for JULY

The title was supposed to be 5 constant rants of my life but I don't want these rants to be my rants for the rest of my life so I decided to change it for July only. HEHE

1.) My room is such a mess. This could be the understatement of the year.
2.) My bag is so heavy.
3.) I'm so fat.
4.) I want to be organized.
5.) I am so forgetful.

MUST DO SOMETHING.

xx,

Annie

NASHVILLE

As I said on my recent post, I'll try to start getting to watching TV series and so I downloaded Devious Maids, Nashville, and with the recent death of Cory Monteith, I find myself wanting to watch Glee again because I saw a lot of new characters that I do not know and there's a hot guy I'm crushing on!! Jacob Artist! <3.<3

But the downloads are taking forever because I try to download one episode at a time and stop and play the downloads whenever I need to use the internet. The download greatly affects the speed of my internet. It becomes unsurfable (like there is such word but you get me). So the download is taking forever plus I'm only watching during lunch breaks and after work but I'm currently hooked to Nashville and Devious Maids.

Devious maids is still on its fourth episode of season 1 and I can't wait to finish the whole season. It's so intriguing. It's actually my first time to watch that kind of tv series because I mostly only watch the chick flick type.

NASHVILLE is asdfghjklqwertyfaufgsdjbvsibwu!!!!!@#$%^&*!!! OMG so cute. I downloaded the soundtrack of the whole season 1 and listening to it while typing this. I'm inlove with the storyline, the characters, the songs and everything about it. I can't get enough of it. I'm on the 6th episode now. Still downloading the rest of season 1.

If you are reading this and is not watching Nashville, you should definitely watch it. It's a musical type of tv series like Glee but the story line is of course, different. 

If you are watching it, let me know your thoughts about this! :*

xx,

Annie

5 before 25

5 bags I wish to have before I reach 25!!! 1 and a quarter year left. Yikes. I feel old.

Not in order.

1.) A Chanel mini flap bag

2.) A Prada (any Prada bag will be very much appreciated by moi)

3.) A Givenchy Nightingale 

Givenchy Nightingale photo from here

4.) A Balenciaga

Balenciaga Classic City Dune

5.) A Rebecca Minkoff mini mac bag. 

Mini Mac
Photo from here

The Secret is to believe that I will have all of these bags before I reach my 25th year mark in this world and so I believe. <3

I kind of regret buying my colorful Coach bags when I should have just got myself classics. What was I thinking? /wrist!! oh well, the more bags, the better. A girl can never have too much bag can she? 

xx,

Annie

Sarah Luzarraga

The only thing I regret with my friendship with Sarah is that I have not been close to her earlier. We have known each other's existence since college but only after I moved here to Cebu that we got really close.


I mean how could we have wasted so much college years not knowing each other? College could have been waaaaaay cooler if I had known her earlier. She is just so adorable it's impossible not to love her.

Janine, Joe and Dainie's joint birthday party
March 2010

Janine, Joe and Dainie's joint birthday party
March 2010
Photos from Nica's Facebook

We have had pictures taken together but we only knew each other by name and never really got to talk to each other.

Boracay 2010
April 27, 2010

Boracay 2010
April 27, 2010

The days before I discovered the wonders of makeup. Was such makeup newbies at that time. I didn'y even know that filling your eyebrows can make a whole lot of difference.

Boracay 2010
April 27, 2010

It wasn't until late 2010 that we got the chance to kind of know each other.

Psychos grad party October 2010

Blockmates grad party 2010

CAS, February 2011

Sarah, as my makeup guinea pig makeup model, Feb 2011

But it was only when I moved here to Cebu that we got really close!! Thanks to BBM and my cuteness she can't help but want to be my friend! No! But really, I don't know how or when we started sending bbms to each other almost everyday. I think it really started when we had our VNG (Voice Note Group) sending our voice notes almost everyday that got us really close to each other. After the BBM, there was Face Time, iMessage, Twitter, Facebook, Instagram, Viber, Wechat and now SNAPCHAT!

We are literally (virtually) inseparable. If there is one person who knows me more than myself, it would be Sarah. She totally knows when I'm having PMS (more than I would know) and she totally knows how to pick me up when I'm down. She is also the number one supporter, friend, sister, sulsulera, kontrabida, fitness buddy (ANYARE NA TE!?!?) that I have and I hope that a year from now, that still won't change. I know that close friends come and go but she is one friend I would want to keep constant.

But even before the BBM sessions, we were already friends before I came to Cebu. We used to hangout with the ex boyfriends and we used to talk about this one "friend" we used to hate. BITCH FITS about her (the "friend") all the time. That's what really started our friendship then and then I used to invite her and *** to eat out all the time because I wanted to hear stories about ***. hihi.

Now, we talk about ANYTHING UNDER THE SUN AND THE MOON AND THE UNIVERSE. We kind of talk about about almost everything if not everything.

Last time I saw her was December 2012 when we had lunch in Robinson's Ermita. We were supposed to go to Boracay last May 2013 for the labor day but then she had to cancel the last minute because of work. #grownupproblems

Exactly one week from now, Sarah will come here to Cebu to visit moi and we already have itineraries planned out and a lot more good things shall happen when she comes here because this is how our conversation goes nowadays and weeks before and even months before next week comes:

NOT VERBATIM.

ANNIE: I want to color my hair.
SARAH: Me too. Let's pacolor our hair when I go there.
ANNIE: Okay.

ANNIE: I will buy an iPad mini, please accompany me to buy when you come here.
SARAH: Okay.
ANNIE: OMG I'm so excited to buy my iPad mini and I want to buy it with you so you can help me choose.
SARAH: I should totally help you decide because there are A LOT (sarcastic) of designs to choose from.

ANNIE: I want to decorate my room. Please help me decorate my room.
SARAH: okay!
ANNIE: I'll shop for organization stuff later.
SARAH: Wait for me to go there so we could shop together for your organization stuff!

ANNIE: You know, maybe I should just stop breathing and just breathe again when you come here. :))))

Because we totally want to do a lot of things together when she comes over! I AM SO EXCITED FOR HER TO COME OVER CAN I JUST TYPE HERE? asdfghjkl!!!!!!! :D :D :D

Sarah, if you are reading this, I really CAN NOT WAIT for you to come over. We have totally gone cray and our friendship is so cheesy I bet it makes other people cringe but I don't care cos I love you this much



































































































































































































(to infinity and beyond)




xx,

Annie

I want to TRY to not be ME

For once in my life I finally want to do something about my life instead of just ranting all the time. Ranting is boring but most of the time it's what get through us life so thanks for my friends who had been putting up with my random rants mostly work related and mostly about the most non sense stuff about well, hating the world? If that even made sense.

I've been liking to do some things I have never liked to do. For one, I want to start doing exercises. I have been dreading exercise my whole life and now, I finally want to do it. There was only this one time during my senior year in high school that I really gave exercising a chance. If you call dancing your ass off an exercise then yes, that was my only shot at trying to exercise. There are actually quite a lot of things that I want to do that never really liked but is willing to give a chance. I always seem to just stick to what I'm used to do and be boring and not really discovering new things.

Working out: I want to give time to fitness for a lot of reasons with my health as the number 1. I have been feeling a lot of different feelings/ailments that I'm not supposed to feel at such a young age and I'm thinking that maybe it has something to do with my sedentary lifestyle. Since I don't get any exercise at all. I'm guessing that I only do more or less a hundred steps the whole on a normal day. That's just crazy! I don't blame my body for being this weak. MUST DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT.

Watching TV series: I never never never really liked watching tv. Maybe my adhd (not really) has something to do about it but I always get bored watching tv series. The only tv show that I watched from it's season 1 until the end is 90210 and The Carrie Diaries (still waiting or season 2). I know I am missing out on quite a lot of tv series that my friends are always raving about like TVD, PLL, Hannibal (Hi, Sarah) and etc so I'm actually trying to add this past time to the things I could do when I am bored. Since I found out about Youtube and all the amazing videos I can watch in it like makeup tutorials, vlogs, etc, this has been my favorite past time after I finish going through all my social media news feed. Don't judge me for being so nosy. I know you all are too! 

Sneakers: Fit flops is the greatest invention in the slippers/sandals industry. I always resort to wearing it if I don't feel like dressing up or want comfortable foot wear. Hihi.

Blogging: I want to come back to blogging but I want to blog more relevant stuff than my usual rant posts. My blog is such a cloud of negativity. I am not surprised I don't have much hits because who would want to read a blog full of negativity anyway? I want it to have more sense and more of what is really happening in my life and I want it to be more colorful and have more pictures. Out with the Annie last year whose past was so dark and boring. In with the cheerful Annie who always has good news to share! Are you ready? YES I AM.

Taking pictures: I just want to capture more out of everything in pictures. Back in my freshman years in college, my friends and I used to be addicted in taking pictures, even the most randomest pictures, and then we post it on Multiply. I REGRET NOT SAVING ALL MY MULTIPLY PICTURES :( I think I lost half of my college memories in digital with the lost of multiply. I thought I could just go back anytime and just grab or look at it there anytime but I was COMPLETELY wrong. Multiply decided to shut down the whole site and when you go to multiply, it will all just be like this:

Just like Friendster, Multiply took all of our memories, JUST. LIKE. THAT. 

I hope Facebook will never have to face these kinds of problem and that just gave me an idea to personally save all the photos with myself (ofcourse) in it. *mental note* Maybe I should a lot a few days for that. Since we're talking about Facebook, I'm now back on Facebook and I miss chatting with my friends. The reason why I deactivated it was because I was spending too much time in it (not completely this but let's just put it this way) and at times when I tried to go back, I always felt alienated with it like I no longer belonged in it. (DRAMA QUEEN right here) Now that I'm back, I can now chat with my friends again. Especially Princess, my friend from Japan and Marj, my high school friend, who I only get to chat with (most of the time) on Facebook since we are no longer in that stage where we are text-y to each other but Facebook felt fine. Do you get what I mean? Do I even make sense? 

I just wish I get myself a nice point and shoot camera though. I am totally into taking pictures and looking at beautiful photos again. :) I'm not really particular when it comes to gadgets because I don't consider myself techy and I do not know much about cameras so yeah, a nice point and shoot camera will do.

Socialize more: I kinda went through a stage where I didn't like to socialize much and a fun weekend meant staying at home and resting since I was so stressed at work the whole week or pretty much just because that was my routine, I felt so comfortable with it that going out did not sound as exciting at all.  I did not want to go out and socialize because I feared rejection and I feared that Cebuanos wouldn't want to be friends with me or talk to me that much because I did not know how to speak Bisaya. I want to socialize more now and meet new people because people are just so interesting aren't they? I just need to make myself look equally interesting as well. How to do that exactly, I really don't know how. So good luck to me. 

There are quite a few more things that I'm not really into but would like to try to do and see if I get interested to these stuff like:

Play PS3 games and be hooked.

Join fun runs and actually run and not just walk.

Wear sneakers (again) I used to wear a lot of sneakers back in college and I even collected Chuck Taylors back then but I stopped wearing them after college.

Do art?? (maybe?) Not really on this one because I don't have any creative juice in my body

Post blog posts with lots of photos for visual stimulation (CHOS)

BE MORE FUN

Be less self centered. (really. HAHA) 

Be technically advanced

xx,

Annie

And THIS is exactly why

We want to be partners, not mothers.
Women did not fight hard and work harder for equality and independence just so men could slack off and mess up. Don't get us wrong. We love taking care of you. But it does rankle us if you ask us to plan your life. We will tryour best to give you advice but we wont make any big decisions for you. You wouldn't be able to respect us- or yourself -- if that happened. "It would be hard for me to date a man who needs me to fix up his life when I had to go through so much trying to put mine together," says Dani, 29

----Article in p.68 of Cosmopolitan Philippines June 2013 issue

And this is exactly why.............

Don't wanna say much but reading this felt soooo familiar it felt like home.

xx,

Annie

I was supposed to write something but I read a blog post that left me speechless. I guess I'll just go back to work

I recently colored my hair and it's lighter now. I like it but I miss my dark hair. Thinking if I should go red or go back to black.

Benefits of the good food

I'm looking up the internet for different ways to incorporate chia seeds to your food since it is not widely used here in our country and I found this post http://wellnessmama.com/4981/10-uses-for-chia-seeds/ which was really helpful for me so I'm posting it here for future references.

I'll be doing my healthy grocery shopping later and is looking forward to trying new food to eat other than our staple rice and ulam.

Healthy grocery shopping list:
Quinoa
Chia Seeds
Oatmeal
Almond milk
Banana
Strawberry
Malunggay
Pineapple

So while checking out the Rustan's sale yesterday, we passed by a demo stall which had a juicer display that it's "The only juicer that can EFFECTIVELY juice Malunggay with stem" and so we checked it out and even had to taste their malunggay juice with pineapple. I had two small cups and it was SOOOOO good I can't stop thinking about it! Good thing that my sister has an extra juicer that looks like the juicer on display and I'll borrow it for my office. I am so excited that I can now juice here. Although I don't mind getting my juice readily prepared by ate Mila. She is the best. I told her that I want my lunch to be healthy because I am trying to lose weight so she sent me baked chicken or fish and veggies for my lunch. LOVE HER.

MISSING MY CUTE NIECE! SO MUCH! She was not in the mood yesterday so she was all sungit to us when we were at the mall and she slept early last night because she did not nap in the afternoon so I absolutely miss her. She was so sweet this morning though. Although I was half asleep, I can still remember how sweet she was hugging me while I was sleeping or lying down on top of me while she was preparing for school. When I woke up she already left for school. I miss her so much and seeing her so cute and sweet like that makes me want to have my own kid soon!!!! My sister must be so lucky to have the cutest and sweetest and wittiest baby in the world. If you've seen her pictures and find her cute, you have yet to meet her in person and be swooned by her cute personality. She is so smart for a 2 1/2 year old baby!!!

xx,

Annie

The one who needs to organize her life

I have been very disorganized in all aspects of my life and now, I want to do something about it. I feel like I haven't been living my life in its full potential like I have been missing out on a lot of things I should be doing instead of..... what is it that I don to waste my precious time everyday? Instagram? Twitter? Well, I have been spending a lot of time in social media looking at what other people are up to. Very nosy. This social media hype is a gift and a curse at the same time.

It has been a gift to me because I can see other people's healthy lifestyles and I want to do the same. I feel inspired every time I see other people eating healthy food and go to the gym and work out or anything health related. It just makes me want to live a healthier lifestyle.

Recently, I have been following fitness, weight loss accounts in Instagram and I have yet to really research (by that I mean search the www) on clean eating/ healthy eating. I'm planning to go healthy grocery shopping tonight so I should research NOW.

It has also been a curse for me because I waste all my time looking at the news feed I never actually do something like really workout. I always just want to do it but I never actually do it.

That's why I'm going to try once again to make it a habit since I know the first time is always the hardest but once you get the hang of it, it will never feel like a chore ever again. I know because I have been in this state before, I just have to kick start it again. I will workout straight for 21 days and eat healthy food because they say that you need to do something for 21 days straight to make something a habit. I don't plan to workout everyday for the rest of my chubby life until I reach sexiness but it's a good start just to motivate my very lazy self who is so used to her sedentary lifestyle after college graduation! Since we talking about graduation! It has been 2 years since my college graduation!

June 25, 2011 Graduation with Ken, Sarah, Lala and Kenno 

I cannot believe it has been 2 years since I moved here to Cebu. My life has changed so much since then. I am so much more responsible now than I ever was in college and I miss those times. Who doesn't miss college? HAHA Why can't I move on from college anyway? HAHA I'm just saying that being grown up comes with hell lots of responsibilities that I never imagined I will have this early in my life. I'm so excited though. I'm also glad that I am forced to have these responsibilities or I would have wasted 2 years of my life not doing anything about my life and probably partying my ass off every weekend drinking alcohol, trying to be cool, trying to fit in, making myself be surrounded with fake happiness that is going out to clubs with the latest songs blasting off the speakers.

I think that this is God's way to bring me to the right path. He knows me very well.

I kind of miss Manila though. I miss going out at night stuck in heavy traffic and feeling bad for being late again and trying to get somewhere faster. I miss going out every day and going to my friends' house and picking them up to get somewhere else and just spend time together doing practically nothing but be together.

I love how my life is now though but I could love it more so I have do something more worthwhile than drowning myself with social media and that is also why I chose to deactivate my Facebook to cut out on my social media participation since I tend to be hyper on them. Forgive me, they're the closest I can get to having a social life, okay?

Lunch break and I'm so hungry so I guess I'll end this post here.

xx,

Annie

In other news,

why don't I have an iPad yet? Oh yeah. Cos I'm still broke and spent my money on I don't know where but I managed to spend them all anyway. Gee!! Someone save me. I need a sideline or an online job

I realized that nobody is ever willing to fully help you in this world. You have to work very hard to be able to reach where you want to be. Not that I want them to hand me success but all Im asking is just a little help.

That's all I wanted

5 Things that made my morning

These past few weeks has been a mess and I feel like I've been in a war with myself and I realized that it's all just me. I haven't been practicing Law of Attraction lately, or rather, I've been attracting negative energy lately like I always feel so broke which makes me even poorer. I feel like everything is not falling into place which makes everything more complicated. Even our sales is affected by my negativity.

Good thing that I feel so good vibes today with the articles I read, songs I listened to and friends I'm catching up with and snacks I'm munching on to. LOL.

Sharing with you the 5 things that made my morning!

1.) 20 Good Habits You Need to Start in Your 20s

2.) 21 ways you should take advantage of your 20s

3.) Clarity - Zedd

 4.) Catching Fire Official Trailer

5.) Loacker Quadratini Napolitaner! WHOOO!! Fatness first. CANNOT STOP MUNCHING ON THESE. THIS WILL BE THE DEATH OF MY SEXY BODY.


Stop dwelling on the negative and start focusing on the positive! :) Breathe in, breathe deep and smile :D SMILE BIG!

xx,

Annie

Obsessing over the Hunger Games

Ok. No need to say more but the title says it all. I'm obsessing over Hunger Games!! Read the Hunger Games last year about a week before the movie comes out and I only got the chance to read Catching Fire recently and upon finishing the book, I quickly read the last book, Mockingjay and now that I don't have any book left to read. :(

I miss PEETA :((((((((( Okay. I feel like I have fallen in love to a fictional character and he is just so cute to not think about. okay??? :)) heehee. I admit that I used to be on Gale's team but after finishing all 3 books, I couldn't help but be captured by Peeta's romantic ways just like how he did with Katniss.

CAN I JUST BE KATNISS EVERDEEN!!! ugh ugh ugh hehehehe bye bye! Im still in Hunger Games world!!!

Annie

Vacation Hangover

Vacations are good in general but when you have zero self control like me, it sucks balls. I am now a whale and is depressed at how big I got from the recent Holy Week that I spent at home with my family and some days I went out and pigged out with my bff.

Wednesday, March 27, 2013
Went straight home after my dad picked me up at the airport at around 9pm because I couldn't go anywhere. Dad picks up at the airport = go home straight. Haven't had dinner yet so I was the first and only one who ate the lechon de leche (small roasted pig) that I brought. Ate 2 - 3 servings of rice with lechon at 10+ in the evening. PIG PIG PIG!

Thursday, March 28, 2013
Woke up and found my sisters eating Koko Crunch with milk so I joined them. :) Ate lunch at around 11am so we can go to Duty Free with the family after lunch since almost (if not all) all of the malls were closed. Arrived at Duty Free around 2pm and ate yet another Kenny Roger's meal! Ugh :( I have zero control when it comes to my appetite.
Ate dinner at around 630pm and ate so much again.

Friday, March 29, 2013
Went to a hot spring resort with the bff and this was the worst day of my glutton days. Realized that Gluttony is indeed a sin. Couldn't stop eating the whole day, meal after meal and dips in the pool and a nap and a meal again. Went home with a bad headache and couldn't talk because I felt like barfing. I finally got home and after having to drive from Makati to my house with a bad headache and the feeling of wanting to barf. Got home and yes, I barfed and it was really gross. I was super tired but I was glad to be home and I'm also glad I brought with me my very comfy pajamas! Best sleep ever. :)

Saturday, March 30, 2013
Thought I would be able to spend my day with my mom but then I went to Market Market with my sisters to buy my sister's luggage and we ate breakfast at my sister's boyfriend's cafe. GLUTTONY ALERT. ATE SO MUCH FOOD. Rice meals + chocolate cake + cheesecake + Matcha(?) green milk tea with yogurt pearls that was really cute and tasted good and was fun to drink at the same time? Like I was so excited to pop the yogurt balls every time. :) Lunch with the family at 2pm because the shabu shabu place offers a 50% off at 2pm - sometime. HEHE ATE SO MUCH AGAIN. Even when there was a great discount off the total food bill, we also had to pay a fat bill. Just imagine how much food we ordered. Since we finished lunch at around 4pm, I was still full until 10pm that night but I still ate Bon Chon Chicken that night just so we can have a place to hang out in and my friend didn't want to eat if I don't eat with him. I was kinda forced to eat now. You know!

Sunday, March 31, 2013
Breakfast was riiiiiiice, again and siomai and a thin slice of Spam. When I typed riiiiiice, it only means that it was a lot of it. hoho. Lunch was with the family at home and lunch with the family for me means unlimited eating. :(( It was also my last day in Manila and this trip made me so attached to my family I was super sad about leaving.. Almost cried when I was in the plane. Anyway, I ate crepe at Resorts World before I left for the airport.

Monday, April 1, 2013
I am super hung over from the vacation and I know that Holy Week is supposed to be spent reflecting but I did zero reflection and I just came back to work feeling more restless and is looking forward for a real vacation. An out of the country vacation perhaps? I need a break. I don't know what kind of break I am looking for but I want one. But before I get one, I MUST lose all the weight I gained over the days first. MUST MUST MUST! I have in me a sense of panic and despair that I might not lose it in time for Boracay on May 1 which I have yet to ask for a leave. UGH!

So much stuff on my mind now about how to lose weight and look prettier and sexier and more adorable and cute and etc. BUT I HAVE MORE IMPORTANT THINGS THAT I SHOULD FOCUS ON like how to be a better person and be better at work and be rich!!!!!!! haaaay me. :))


xx,

Annie

Birthday Wishlist

It's still too early but I'm listing down my birthday wishlist for 2013. I love listing down wish lists because I feel like I attract material things to come to me. I do get them. I got almost all the things I listed down the last time I did this for Christmas 2012 and I hope it works again this time. :) hohoho.

1.) SARAH'S gift. It's a bit confidential but it's been taken care of the very good friend. hihi.
2.) Philip Stein strap. (medium, red and/or black)
3.) Books

1. The Secret  by Rhonda Byrne  Got mine as a birthday gift from Faith! :)
2. The Power by Rhonda Byrne
3. The Magic by Rhonda Byrne
4. Abundance of Katherines by John Green  - ebook copy
5. Looking for Alaska by John Green  - ebook copy

4.) Nice clothes because I don't have any nice clothes anymore. I wear the same clothes every time!!!

5.) Friends and more friends :)

6.) Boracay Vacation _ May 2 - 5, 2013

7.) Business (sideline) idea so I can have more money!!!

8.) Experience

9.) Knowledge

10.) Success

Not asking for much, noh? I love God! And I know He loves me too!

and oh! I almost forgot that I would also want an iPad mini too! :) hihi -present from my daddy bear! 

UPDATED September 30, 2013:  I realize that some things take more time to achieve but I'm happy that I get to cross out some things listed here. :) 

xx,

Annie

I guess all I'm trying to do is to convince myself that I am happy and that nothing can ever make me feel sad because I lift it all to Him to work on my life for a better future and to just go with the flow so that everything will just fall into place according to His plans but sometimes PMS slaps me in the face and ask me to wake up to the realization that I want to belong where I really belong and that's someplace like HOME.

I miss the comfort of my HOME. Not exactly our house but I miss being too comfortable. I miss my old life. I miss my family, my best friend, my boyfriend, my close friends. Sometimes, I do wonder how my life would be like if I didn't move here and just stayed in Manila. What will my everyday be like? What is my work like? What is my weekend like and who I hangout with. Stuff like that intrigues me. I miss having a really close friend around where I can be who I really am and not be afraid to bitch around because we're too close to even care. A friend who I can drag wherever to join me in my ups and downs. I'm just so glad I spent the last days of my stay in Manila with my bff doing just exactly.

I can lose control of myself especially my emotions. I just wish I'm better at handling my emotions more than anything else so that I can control my temper and how I treat the people around me. I want to be likable and always in control and as much as I want to know what to do at all times I know it doesn't work that way. Wisdom comes with experience and that is what I want to have. I always lose control of my emotions like now, I feel so down I just want to shut myself from the world. I know that nobody cares enough but it's just how I feel now. I WANNA SHUT MYSELF OFF FROM THE WORLD. I wish I can just disappear but I still have duties to attend to. It sucks. I know. I give too much importance to myself.

It's March 10, 2013 now and I'm a month and 3 weeks from a Boracay vacation for 5 days. I know it's a little bit too much that's why I haven't asked my boss for a leave yet. I'm just too scared to leave my responsibilities behind and just have a vacation. Either that or I'm just too scared to disappoint my boss that I'll take too long of a leave but I know that that is what I need. I need to get away and spend some time with my really close friend, Sarah, my college block mates and my new found friends whom I have yet to establish a rapport because honestly, I still feel a little awkward around them. I find it hard to fit in a group. My social skills has declined since I graduated college. I'm now officially an awkward wallflower.

I know it's a bit too early but my birthday wish is for my bff to fly over and celebrate it with me because I want to celebrate God's gift of another year with a person I'm really comfortable with and who really understands me who won't get mad if I get a little boring or a little crazy! I just really miss her. hihi.

I still feel a little too emotional now just because this PMS is a bitch and it won't leave me alone. I can't shake this feeling off. UGH. So bye for now. I'll come back when I'm better.

xx,

Annie

Most ridiculous haircut ever

Ever since I found out from my mom's book which have a lot of predictions that this December (Lunar Calendar), a BIG change is bound to happen to me and I will be depressed about it, I got so paranoid and couldn't stop thinking about it. Almost every move I make, decisions I make or everything, I relate it to that prediction. Also, I went to a manghuhula last November and she had the same predictions that this year is all about changes and that a BIG change is going to happen this February and I shall be ready for it. I was so shocked that I cried when she (fortune teller) told me about it. I guess I can never escape the inevitable.

So I tried to make my own "changes".  I went to SM yesterday to have my hair cut and while at it, decided that I want a full bangs again like the last one I got when I had my last haircut and this was what I got.....

January 29, 2013

This is my usual office photo

OH MY 

I had to post 3 photos to show you that it wasn't just about a bad angle or whatever. I look ridiculous!!! I couldn't care less though because I have so much more important things to worry about and give importance to like my mom. Please pray for my mom that she will be fine. She needs all the prayers. She had a surgery today and the results will come out in 5 days and we hope that everything will be okay. I'm more worried about my mom more than anything else because I know she's upset about her situation and I can't take it that she's upset. Okay. Enough with that. I just cant take myself to write about something so sad and depressing. I really really really hope that everything will be okay. 

xx,

Annie