My fitness goal: to be able to #yogaeverydamnday

MEOW

Sarah and I on our next lives

I don't know when it started but I can't believe that I've turned into a cat lady.

I was never an animal person. My friends with pets know this because I'm one of those annoying friends who harass their pets semi-physically by shoo-ing them away and verbally abuse them telling them how ugly they are (the pets) which always ends up with my friends secretly hating me. :3

But the wheel has turned and everything has changed because I super find cats adorable and I want to own one. I can not wait for me to become an official cat lady when I finally have my own cat only God knows when.

One of those days

The only problem we ever face are the ones we inflict to ourselves and the ones inflicted to us by people who we care about or those who we think we care about.

I had a conversation with the bestie (who's still the most amazing person I know) about how guys lure you into liking them but drops you off as soon as you show emotions. WHAT THE FUCK?! Whoever gave these people permission to ever play with people's feelings. It's just so complicated. Everything is just so complicated.

1.) You want so badly to know a person because you find her interesting. WAY TOO INTERESTING than all of the other girls you've ever met. 

2.) The more you know her the more you like her and the more you want to go to deep conversations with her which leads you two having mutual admiration for each other. Even though these things are left unsaid, it's just way too obvious for you to even try to deny it. 

3.) Guy starts to back off when girl starts showing emotions. 

I know all the bullshit guys have to say about this situation but sometimes it just gets too frustrating to be able to feel so much attraction for a person only finding them to pull away just because you are showing real emotions that maybe and just maybe this could be something special. Maybe not forever but something special. Something real enough to actually hurt them and not just the superficial benefits given by cheap thrills of attraction or maybe we will never know or maybe they are just saving us and themselves from going through all the unnecessary dramas that they weren't ready for in the first place. 

PIECE OF ADVICE GUYS: DO NOT GET INVOLVE WITH ANY GIRL IF YOU DO NOT WANT DRAMAS because it's a package. The joy they give you comes with the unnecessary dramas whether you like it or not. 

Thoughts are obviously not coherent because I'm still struggling with the pains of falling with your face flat and having your right boob to cushion the fall.

Just another rant.

Some things are left unsaid but never unfelt and I quote "That's the thing about pain, it demands to be felt." and sometimes you just have to suck things up. Actions have consequences and this time I have no escape. I have no choice but to face it. It's just that people grow and priorities change and it's just not what I'm looking for anymore. 

On the Loop

1. Shower - Becky G
2. Ride - SoMo
3. Shot Me Down - David Guetta
4. Stay High (Habits Remix) - Tove Lo ft Hiipie Sabotage
5.Chandelier - Sia
6. Jubel - Klingade
7. Waves (Robin Schulz Remix) - Mr. Probz
8. A Sky Full of Stars - Coldplay
9. XO - Beyonce
10. Unconditionally - Katy Perry

Recap for the past months. A lot of things happened and they happened so quickly. The lifestyle of people nowadays are so fast paced that even the events are so fast I can't cope.

To summarize everything that happened, I'm just happy to be where I am now. I'm happy for the things that have happened to me in the past because as cliche as it sounds, they made me, uhhhmm I hate to say this but, stronger and wiser.

I'm happy. :) and I think that's what's most important. Isn't that our purpose in life more than to be financially wealthy. HAHA

xx,

Annie

Blogging Hiatus

I've been on a hiatus because surprisingly, I've been really busy with real life. Makes me miss my virtual life (as if I have one. lol)

July started really well. My week has been really good since this Monday and until today I'm still in this happy bubble. I don't think anyone can ever burst it and kill my vibe. I'm just too happy and been really lucky lately.

July is my month. Claiming it!!

New month's resolution: Use 3G less so I wont get extra charges on my phone bill!!!! MUST RESIST.

xx,

Annie

Reflections

1. Stop worrying too much about the future. The future is well written. Let the story unfold on it's own so there's no need to rush.
2. Success takes time.
3. It's okay to not know everything.

Girlsgirlsgirls

One thing I cannot understand now is why girls stay with their boyfriends who doesn't do anything but to give them heartaches and heartbreaks. I mean is it not enough that they take you for granted? Like seriously? Why stay if the other person does not even show you that you are important and worthy? WHY? WHYYYY? HAHAHA Like I just want to get a rock and throw it to their head because that is exactly what they are doing to themselves.

I will never ever ever ever allow myself to be treated like that because I have enough self respect to know my worth.

We accept the love we think we deserve. Anything less than we deserve is not worthy. Let go and move on. 

Couldn't have said it better. 

Too cheeseballs for words. 

Throwback Thursday to 23

It has not been a month since I turned 24. Turning 24 did put a lot of pressure on me. A year older and should be a year wiser and I hope I am. I assure you I am.

Looking back on the year that was, I can say that 23 has been exciting for me. Really really exciting. It was a year of being single, carefree, (emotionally) independent, emotionally shattering and all kinds of roller coaster.

23 was the best year of my life yet. I felt most alive when I was 23. 23 made me feel how happy it is to be alive.

In 23, I learned gratitude. I learned contentment. I learned that you don't need a lot to be happy. I learned that meeting new interesting people makes your life interesting as well. I learned that to be really happy, you need a best friend who will support you in whatever it is that you want to do even if it may sound stupid because she trusts you enough to know what is correct. I learned to be understanding. I learned that it's okay if you don't have a lot of friends. Quality is always greater than quantity. I learned that having fake friendship will people is just as bad as wasting your time doing nothing or may be way worse. I learned that I can not put up with people's bullshit and to stand up on what I believe in. I learned to slow down. I learned to control my emotions. I learned to take things slowly. I learned to be cautious. I learned to be mature. The most important thing I learned when I was 23 was that we are our conscious effort to be who we are. We are who we want to be and we can be who we want to be by our conscious effort to be that person and that we should always continue to be the best version of ourselves. That the only person we should be better than is the person we were yesterday.

I used to think that people are born to be this person and she is that person because she is that person but social psychology explains so much on who a person is.

In my conscious efforts, I also learned how to be organized which is one of the things I'm most happy about. I am still not the most organized person in the world but I am better than I was before and I still try to be better than I am today. I will never stop doing this.

I learned how to be more uptight. Being uptight makes me happy. It makes me feel in control. I wish one day I will have to bid my carefree days goodbye and look back and see how much fun I had when I was younger. Sometimes I'm too uptight and worry too much that I worry for non sense things. This is one trait I wish to loosen up a bit this 24, to let go of the things that doesn't matter.

I also learned that when you want something, it is not enough to just want it because you have to get up and kick your ass to get what you want!!!! Wanting something hard enough is one thing and I admire people who are passionate and who wants to achieve their goals but acting on your dreams is another. This 24, I promise myself to start achieving these goals. To start materializing these ideas. I spent 3 years of my official grown up life learning and I think it is time to go and get it. I'm more ready for you than ever, dear life. I am no longer afraid to fall down because I know I will be able to get up and stand again. One of the reasons that was holding me back of getting what I want is because of my fear for failure and now the only fear that I have is not moving forward. My only fear is that I will stop having the drive to push myself.

There are so much more that I learned this year that it is impossible to list down everything but to cut it short, year 23 has been nothing but great. Really really great. 

Thanks, 23. For being awesome. I'm nothing but grateful.

<3

P.S. I also met this awesome person who has been nothing but amazing. Thanks, 23 for giving me that. 

xx,

Annie

NOTE TO SELF

1.) Take nice photos and post it online.

I've recently reactivated my tumblr and this time, I want to be able to post beautiful photos that I personally took instead of just reblogging a bunch of other tumblr users. 

One thing I regret the most this Laboracay 2014 was that I wasn't able to take a lot of photos. When I checked my phone for photos to post online, all I see are selfies of me and my friends and I don't think it is appropriate to post an album on social media with multiple pictures of yourself taken by yourself. That's just irk worthy. Although I am guilty of posting selfies on my instagram feed. hehe

2.) Look good to feel good.

I am guilty of going to work without trying to look good anymore because I mostly just sit my way through the day on my office table finishing my paper works and I just can not do this to myself anymore. I feel like I'm wasting so much of my potential sitting here but once everything's settled in the office, I will go out and have more productive days! 

That is why I promise to make myself look good everyday so I'll be most inspired to have more productive days. 

3.) Do something more productive.

Read #2 for work related activities and #5 for health activities.

4.) Go on a beach trip before summer ends. 

I'm planning to hit the beach before the summer ends and I plan to go somewhere farther up north and catch the sunrise so that means leaving the city at wee hours of the morning so I can start the day right and go home early to end it right. 

I just want to go to a secluded beach for some peace and relaxation. Do nothing. Think nothing. Clear the mind and take pictures (read #1). 

5.) Be 100% into fitness and health.

 I realized that if you're going to be into fitness, you can not be half hearted in it. It's either you're in or you're out and I decided that I will be 100% into it. Cannot wait to start exercising and clean eating again. I kind of deviated from clean eating ever since I got back from Boracay because of my I-will-give-myself-one-week-window-to-cheat emote and now I blame myself from being fat again. 

6.) Buy a memory card for your cellphone.

I keep complaining on how bad the resolution of pictures taken from my phone is and how bad I want to upgrade my phone to an iPhone then last night, as I was talking to my friend, he said something about adjusting the settings of my phone to make the resolution better then boom! It hit me! I set the resolution to it's lowest setting (2.4megapixels) the last time because it was occupying to much space on my phone and I don't have a memory card so my phone always reaches its low memory alert. Sorry for being a cheapo! I will now invest on a memory card so I can take hi-res phone photos! 

7.) Track expenses -again - and try to spend as little as I can.
It would've been shorter if I name #7 as save money but that is not what I am aiming for. I do save a huge chunk of my salary for my savings. I only get 10% of my salary to spend on whatever I want. I used to spend all of that allowance on whatever I want and just spend as long as it is within budget but now I want to track all my expenses and try to really look for cheap and/or free places to go to. Cheap food to eat and cheap hangouts. Okay I say cheap like it's a bad thing but what I mean is that instead of the usual hangout places we go to that serves 80 to 90 pesos for a bottle of beer, I want to try to go to less expensive places where we can get drinks for a more affordable price! 

With that being said, I meant 7 eleven. Haha. Our friend, Stan is managing a 7 eleven owned by his family that's newly opened in City Time Square, in front of Parkmall, and already, we are claiming that place to be our tambayan where we can get cheap drinks!! 28 pesos for a bottle of San Mig Apple. Gosh. I don't think I can ever go back to paying for 90pesos beer (Politics)!!

I've tried tracking my expenses last April because my friend Ina introduced me to this app called SPENDING and I thought it was the best app ever invented for people who wants to see how they are spending. April is such a bad month to start keeping track because I spent a LOT that month. Like A LOOOOT that even I was shocked that I was capable of spending that amount on nothing. No major purchases. Just mindless spending. Don't get me started this May because I did not even bother to keep track anymore. I'll just start tracking by June. :p HEHE 

You gotta have bad days too

I'm usually in a happy bubble when I'm not pms-ing. I try so hard to be in a good mood everyday like it's my mission to live everyday as if it's my last. As soon as I open my eyes, my mind is focused on doing only the things that will give me good vibes and brush all the bad vibes away but today is not an ordinary day. Today is extra special because as soon as I woke up, I know that today is going to be a bad day and I know it will be.

I believe in law of attraction and I believe on how it works that is why I have accepted that today is going to be a bad day and I'm okay with it. I'm not going to do anything to try to make it better because you gotta have bad days too.

I'm thankful for the bad day that is happening to me today. It gives me so much rage and fire on how unhappy I am with things and is finding ways to find solutions and improvements. You see, being unhappy make me happy. How ironic. 

Being unhappy leads us toward self improvement. My heart is filled with so much emotions that it makes me so unhappy and uncomfortable which only lead me to think "what can I do to improve this?" so today, I decided to take actions on a lot of things that makes me sad and mad. They maybe decisions made on a bad emotion which often is not the best time to make decisions but they are little decisions that are not life changing so I guess it's totally fine to act on it right away. LOL. 

Ranting and being unhappy lead me to having a productive morning. Thank God for this. Definitely something to be thankful for. 

Of course I will do what I do best on my blog, RANT. So I will list down my top rants of the day.

RANTS

1. Waking up late.

I can't believe myself for waking up at 8:15am. I just promised myself last week that I will start waking up early again this week and it's just the first work day of the week yet I woke up at a very unacceptable time. The latest I woke up on a work day this year, I think. Which explains how bad my mood has become. I am so unhappy with myself and is disappointed. I have failed my employers for being such a lazy ass and I have failed myself too.

2.Slow Cebu drivers

Cebuanos are just slow drivers!!!! I don't know what is it with Cebuanos and their driving skills but everyone from Manila noticed this too. My Cebuano friend explained that they are cautious drivers because the streets are small and that there are a lot of motor bikers so they drive slowly to avoid accidents but but but but I cannot accept this!! The lifestyle here is too laid back that it is manifested in their driving skills. 

I'm kind of guilty because when I first came here, my driving skill was also affected. I became a slow and very cautious driver which my sister was so pissed at and my friends from Manila noticed too! Until now, I feel that I have semi adapted the Cebu driving style and I'm thankful for today because I will ditch slow driving and start driving Manila style. LOL. That's what I did today, honked at everyone who were driving so slowly blocking my way to get to my office faster because well... I was so late.

3. Unhappy with things

Personal things that I'm unhappy with that I wish I can publicly rant but I decided I wont because it involves feelings of people I love and I don't want to hurt them when they read it here. Besides, it's their way of doing things I'm very unhappy about and it's totally out of my business. Just being a bitch and bitching about all things available to bitch about on. I should just breathe in, breathe out and let this go. Now that I think about it, I also don't understand why I'm so pissed about this issue. I'm only killing myself by doing this. HEHE but you know!! The bitch has to bitch around. I pity the people who'll get involved in my emotional rut.

4. Expectations leads to disappointments.

'Nuff said.

On a lighter note, I'm back to clean eating and my fitness streak so everything should be fine. :) 

xx,

A

Boracay Food Diary

May 1
Breakfast at home
Omelette with mushroom and tomato
1 pc toasted bread

Lunch at the Cari Lounge by the bay
Adobo
Fish Sinigang
Rice

Refreshments at Starbucks
Iced venti white chocolate mocha because it was too hot and we were so dehydrated

Dinner at Frypan
Rolled egg.
Just rolled egg because the beef bulgogi was too eeww for words.

May 2
Breakfast in bed (Tapa King)
Tocilog in bed because the bff was too nice to buy me breakfast in bed.  

Breakfast # 2
Buffet breakfast c/o hotel
Scrambled egg
Cereals with milk
half toasted bread

*okay. I ate more than what I can remember. For sure that's not just what I ate.

Lunch at Pamana
Sinigang
Pinakbet
Kare kare
Sugpo
Crispy Pata
Grilled boneless bangus
Rice

Dinner at Yellow Cab
Shrimp and garlic pizza
Spicy chicken wings

May 3
Breakfast at Andok's
lechon manok
sinigang
Dokito
rice

Refreshments
Mango shake from the hotel. BESTEST SHAKE IN THE WHOLE ISLAND IF NOT THE WORLD.
Mango ice cream from Mangoholic

Lunch at The Cari Lounge by the bay
Bopis x 2
Tokwa't baboy
Beef nilaga
Afritada
Left over from breakfast
rice

Refreshments at Crazy Crepe
Pistachio Freezee

Dinner at some Mexican restaurant in D'Mall 
chicken fajita
calamansi juice

May 4
Buffet breakfast at the hotel
*I decided to follow my heart and eat to it's desire because heeey I'm going home.
garlic rice
misua soup
scrambled egg
hotdog
chicken and potatoes in gata which I loved a lot I had to go back for round 2
pansit
koko crunch and milk

Lunch at Tinderbox, Mactan airport
Pasta with sausage!! Forgot the name!
Iced cafe latte

Dinner at home
Alaskan king crab legs with lemon butter sauce
bacon flavoured lechon kawali with fresh garlic in oil
rice porridge in crab broth
rice (LOL at carbo loading)

#cleaneats

There goes my new obsession. I know that it's too early to write about something I'm new to but I have so much emotions about this new obsession of mine. It's just something I see that I can commit to. The funnest part is actually not the eating part but the process that takes place before it. The planning out what to cook, preparation and the final part when you get to taste the food that you prepared and think "Hey, clean food doesn't have to taste so bad after all!" and everything actually tastes so good. It makes me happy.

I'm looking forward to preparing more healthy and clean food. It doesn't hurt that I get to lose weight on the process too! :) I hope I can stick with this lifestyle in the long run because it gives me more gratification than indulging in mindless eating and binge eating on junk food! It actually challenges me more to think of healthier options for snacks than to just grab on the yummiest looking junk food my mind tells me to EAT! 

Birthday Wish List 2014

...and things to be grateful for.

Birthday wishlist in random order.

TANGIBLE THINGS 

1.) Personalized Tote Bag by Sarah V. Got a sketch from the fab Sarah V.

      What is a more thoughtful gift than the gift of custom made by a very talented person? 

2.) Coffee maker  from the fab Sarah V.

      For my office coffee drinking purpose. I don't know if this will be very useful though because I drink my coffee once a day on a normal day which I drink during breakfast.

3.) Nars The Multiple matte bronzing stick

4.) Real techniques face brush set

     Now if you are a friend of mine in real life and wants to get me this as a gift and has no clue where to get it, let me help you. This can be bought online from instagram shops (check @es_online) and WAGW in Ayala Cebu also (used to) sell this. If it's no longer available in the aforementioned, please be a better friend and do your research too! 

5.) Shu Uemura eyebrow pencil (HARD)  again, from the fab Sarah V. I'm spoiled I know.

6.) UCC coffee beans/grounds or a any other good coffee beans.

     If you are not sure if it is good, send it to me so I can give it a try. Remind me to remind you if they are good. 

7.) Concealer (any brand. please recommend a good one. I'm so out of the makeup game lately)

      My eye bags will be forever grateful to you.

8.) Benefit Porefessional

      Just to add to my stash. A real hoarder hoards.

9.) Organizational Stuff

      I'm kind of addicted to organizational stuff lately.

10.) Nike Flyknits

      Now, if you really love me that much and would want to extend your great appreciatiIon for my existence, please buy me a nice pair of Flyknits or any other cute pair of running shoes. I will love you forever. 

11.) Water jugs/jars

       I love water jugs and can't get enough of them. I love drinking water so trust in me when I say that this will be a useful gift.

12.) Exercise shorts

       For the runner wannabe in me. Got a bunch of yoga clothes which makes my heart so happy! 

13.) Samsung Galaxy Note Tab 

       Although I have a feeling that Samsung will release a newer, nicer tab soon. I still want a Samsung Tab.

14.) iPhone 5s or a 5c

       I cannot decide which I like more. The sleek and chic one or the cute one. I'm just crazy that I want to switch my current gadgets. I actually want a Samsung tab an Apple phone and I currently have a Samsung phone and an Apple tab. I wish that I would just be content with what I have instead of  wanting things that I don't have. LOL Got a free phone again! <3

INTANGIBLE THINGS

I'm not even sure if it is grammatically correct to call it things if it is intangible. Anyway, you get me so stop being a grammar Nazi.

15.) Reach my goal weight before my birthday.

      Maybe a little too much to wish for but a girl can dream, right? If ever I get pass my birthday without reaching it, I am not in a hurry! I dedicate this year my healthy eating year and I promise myself to dedicate myself into planning out my meals and eating healthier and cleaner meals. No more YOLO-ing when it comes to food. I'll always remember when to be adventurous still. Don't worry, I won't turn KJ on you if we eat out. I promise. I can never say NO to a good meal with friends. :D

16.) Become a better version of myself.

       It is always my goal to become a better version of myself every day. That's why I dedicate myself into reading things that interests me. Which varies. One day I'm interested in makeup, the other days I'm interested in organization, business, computers, architecture, talking about other people (HAHAHA) or just reading a bunch of things out of Thought Catalog (which was my favorite website but I'd like to think we lost it. They've been posting really nonsense and useless stuff lately). Every day is a chance to grow. Talking to new people makes us grow. Experiencing new things and doing things you don't normally do. I always try to challenge myself because I hate having a comfortable and boring life. 

17.) Become richer!!!

      Don't we all want to be richer? Sure (I presume) that we all get our monthly salary (if you work) but I hope I do get a chance to grow my money elsewhere. The idea and opportunity, I hope to have this year! :) 

18.) Lifestyle change. 

      A healthier lifestyle maybe. I know that it has been one of my forever rant that I want to start running but I know that one day I will get there! I hope we'll have more cross fit sessions because it helps me to be more active. Sometimes I get lazy to workout at home. :p

19.) Meet new interesting people, mentors and connections

      I love meeting new clients and people older than me because more than the business that they give me, I love when they share their wisdom to me. I learn so much from people who are much older than me. I love them and hopefully meet more mentors this year. It's one of the things that I appreciate most in my work. Meeting people who are so generous with their knowledge and share them to me.

20.) New life challenges that I wish to surpass

      I love new challenges and I hope never to live a boring day in my life ever again! I hate having boring days. Like today.

I cannot believe I'm growing a year older again in a few days but I'm very thankful for everything He has given me. My life is not perfect but I'm very grateful for it and I think that's what matters most.

A

      

PMS is a fakeng betch

I can't remember the last time I felt like this. My hormones are acting up SO badly that it cannot be compared to any other bad days I've ever had. 

Every morning.......

This and Coffee. My every morning!

LSS of the day. So much emote. Good vibes tho. :>

Divergent and Mondays

1.) I loved the movie and I'm glad that I haven't read the book because then I might be just like my friend, Faith, who read the book and got disappointed with the movie. The book will always just be better than the movie and so I learned my lesson to not read the book first and I'm glad I didn't. In that case, there are no expectations so there will be no disappointments. Don't we all know that disappointments come from expectations. (CHAR)

I really loved the movie and I have kind of high standards (char again) when it comes to liking movies. I don't just like all movies. I find a lot of movies boring and disappointing but this one is good. I rate it 9 stars out of 10. 9 because I didn't have someone to cuddle with during the movie (3rd char). HA HA HA. Honestly, I don't mind watching movies alone but I'm glad I went with my friends this time. I now get why my nephew Andre can't stop obsessing about the movie!!!!!! He wants to watch it again and I think I want to watch it again too. Just like Catching Fire. I was so impressed with the movie I had to watch it twice in the cinema. Heehee. Fangirl here.

2.) Today is Monday and I'm so happy because there are a lot of things to be happy about. :D I can't believe how great law of attraction works for me every.single.time. I was just thinking about how much I wanted to get something that I thought was not going to happen anytime soon but just as I started thinking about it and how much I wanted/needed it, it sure came! I didn't have to look for it. It came knocking at my door. So that's one! I mean the wonder of law of attraction not what I attracted. LOL. It's pretty shallow so no need to talk about it so much!

3.) My legs are so sore which is good because that only means that I had a good workout yesterday. I'm happy because I'm finally doing something about my forever rant and this time, I think I will succeed. :D

4.) I had a weird craving this morning. I'm craving for cold cold beer. I've been wanting to drink since last Saturday night but then I got lazy so nothing happened. Also, I'm trying to cut down my alcohol intake since I'm trying to lose weight. Last night, we all had one bottle of beer each to "celebrate" the start of our first day of "training" together. It was a lot of fun though now that I think of it. hehe I have delayed reaction. Took me almost 24 hours to realize how much fun I had. Anywaaaaay, was craving for beer this morning. Really craving. LIKE I-WANT-TO-DRINK-BEER-SO-BAD kind of craving. I think it's my PMS but it's just so weird that I crave for beer like my liver just couldn't wait for it's reunion with alcohol.

5.) My dinner is served but I'm still full and is procrastinating not to eat it yet but I need to hurry cos I need to leave home in 15mins. I wonder how I'll be able to fit eat, shower, get ready all in 15 mins. Maybe it'll help if I stop blogging. So yeah, I guess this is bye!!

6.) PS. I'm still addicted to Find You by Zedd because it's one of Divergent's soundtrack and just because!!

In a hurry,

Annie

Run with Me

90s viiiiiibe

LSS of the day

I'll run away with your foot steps
I'll build a city that dreams for two
and if you lose yourself, I will find you

new best friend: Concealer and Pond's BB Cream review

I didn't understand it when beauty enthusiasts always choose concealer as their favorite beauty product among any other beauty product. I mean how can you choose concealer when (I thought) it wasn't important? I wasn't really a concealer person until my recent trip to the beach and now my whole beauty regimen has changed.

Every girl should find what beauty products and regimen works for them. What works for me might not work for you and vice versa. Anyway, I'm happy with my new found beauty regimen. It's much simpler than my old one! Will post both regimen for comparison.

I stopped using pressed powder/foundation ever since I found out about Benefit's Porefessional and Pond's BB cream. They instantly became my holy grail and I couldn't go one day without my BB cream. Couldn't stop hyping about it that I received 6 tubes of it for Christmas. It's insane! 

Anyway, since I used Pond's BB Cream, I stopped using pressed powder because the bb cream alone was enough to make my face stay matte the whole day with only a little oiliness at the end of the day. Its formula makes you sweat less and makes you less oily making your face look fresh the whole day! It also gives your face glowing the whole day. It's my secret to staying fresh ;) KIDDING! 

The light was too light for me though and the beige was waaaaay too dark for my skin tone which made me realize that it's easier to blend a lighter bb cream to your face than to blend a darker shade. I'm not satisfied with the light shade now and way unhappier with the beige shade. Thinking of mixing both shades which makes it such a hassle!! As if my makeup kit is not big enough to carry around now I'm thinking of carrying 2 tubes of bb cream! 

Anyway, I mastered the art of applying makeup while driving. That's my everyday routine. 

• Wake up
• Drink Calamansi juice 
• Drink coffee
• Eat breakfast
• Procrastinate a little
• Take a bath

(I know that there's something wrong with this routine that's taking me so much time to get ready for work. Somewhere between wake up and take a bath there are a lot of things going on. Shall do something about this! It should be wake up, take a bath and drink coffee. maybe i should eat my breakfast in my office. Will try it next week when I come back from Manila.)

• Drive to work
• Apply make up while driving
• Get to work at 10AM (WTF) 
• Be awesome. (wink)

I'm not happy with this even though I still go to my sister's office every morning to do stuff, I still want to make it to a point that I get to my office early. My target is to get to work before 8am but so far I was only able to go to work before 8am once. SO NOT PROUD ABOUT THIS. 

It should be my main target this March. I cant believe 2 months have passed and I've been slacking off like a crazy woman with my wake up early resolution. In fact, I find my self waking up later each day. I just don't understand because I have not been going out at night anymore! 

Random note: My body's craving alcohol. I want to drink beer below zero now! UGH.

The thing is, I really want to set myself as an example to my colleagues. I just cannot stomach going to work late every single day anymore!! God, please help me with this!!

Queen of disorganized thoughts. DRIFTED AGAIN.

Back to my makeup routine:

OLD Makeup routine:

• Ponds BB Cream
• Concealer (optional) only on days I feel like putting it on because I feel that the BB cream was able to cover everything I want to hide *ehemeyebagsehem*
• Shu Eumura eyebrow pencil

and anything I feel like adding on after. 

• contour cheeks
• add blush on or cheek tints
• lipstick or lip balm depending on my mood
• sometimes when Im feeling a little brow OC I use 3 to 4 products in it. You'll know I took time with my brows if it looks extra nice. If it was being uneven, I just penciled it while driving. LOL

New makeup routine

• primer (optional)
• concealer
• eyebrow pencil
• Shu Eumura Princess lip and cheek tint!!!!!!!!!!!! (HYPE OVERLOAD)
• contour cheeks (gotta give the illusion of thinner face heehee :>)

I love my new makeup routine because I wear less makeup now. I never really liked wearing too much makeup or foundation on my face because it feels fake. I want to look naturally good and I think it's every woman's goal. Women spend so much time applying their makeup to look like they didn't put on any. It still depends on my mood which makeup routine I prefer and depends on where I'm going. Lately, I've been loving my zero makeup on just moisturizer face. I no longer feel not presentable.

If you read this, make sure that you get the Shu Uemura Princess lip and cheek tint NOW!!!!!! because 1.) It's limited edition and I don't think they still have a lot of it in the market. :( Good news though, I asked my friend from Japan to hoard 6 tubes of this 3 tubes from me (:p) and 3 tubes will be for sale! GO GET IT NOW!
2.) IT'S SUPER AWESOME I CANNOT...................................................
3.) Ever since this makeup product, I've been obsessed with cream makeup! Blush, lip products and is currently looking for a cream bronzer because of it's convenience. I don't need to carry around a brush anymore. Just my hands. LOL

MAKEUP WISHLIST:

Nars Matte Bronzing Sticks (The Multiple)

Makeup crazy,

Annie

Let's make the night you won't remember
I'll be the one you wont forget.

And this song makes me want to drink beer below zero under scorching sun light wearing bikinis and shades. lol 

Booked for Boracay this May 1 with Le BFF. Can. Not. Wait. 

http://www.dailyhiit.com/hiit-blog/hiit-workout/better-sex-exercise/

Career Change, anyone?

Don't get me wrong. I love my job. I do. I can't imagine myself having a different job now but sometimes it gets draining. It drains me physically, emotionally and mentally. I had an almost outburst this morning and it affected my mood the whole day. I hate myself for letting myself be affected and letting it affect my work. I have a whole page of tasks to do but I was only able to finish 4 out of 18 (4/18) tasks in the list. (I also did some time consuming tasks that were not on the list)

Ever since I started my resolution to be organized, I like listing down all my tasks to do. I accomplish more by doing this because I tend to forget the little tasks and they never get accomplished like making calls to ask the boss this and that and make calls to ask this and that or email who or who. I also tend to not work on the dragging tasks like email the supplier when it involves me having to go through the inventory. God knows how much I hate this specific task which is also one of the most important task. I wish I can assign it to somebody else but since it is SO HARD to look for efficient people, I'll have ot just do them. I recently read (again) the Happiness Project by Gretchen Rubins and so far it's one of the most useful books I have ever read. Like ever. It's kinda like a self help book but not so. In the book, she shared how she changed her life with her Happiness Project. I'm still far from finishing the book yet I already learned so much life hacks from her. Maybe since we have the same new year's resolution which I can totally relate to. The be organized part. It just gives me so much gratification whenever I feel that I'm starting to organize myself better. Not just my things because it radiates and I'm starting to realize that we have to put in conscious efforts to be who we want to be and not just be who we are. (hihi) 

I used to be very lazy and just want to go with the flow. I didn't even want to travel because I always thought it's too tiring and too expensive!! Taking 5 days off work was good for me (but not for my bosses LOL) because now I realized that life is too short not to make the most out of it and that sometimes you just have to go and have some fun. 

That is why after some pleading and convincing my best friend to go with me to Boracay for this year's Labor day by sending her pictures from my recent trip, she finally said YES! And that's one of the happiest highlight that I will look forward to this year. Sarah, if you are reading this, I. CAN. NOT. WAIT. TO. GO. TO. BORACAY. WITH. YOU. We were supposed to go there last year together but since we are best friends and the universe kinda have something against us going there, she didn't go with me and left me alone with someone!! (:p) Sarah + beach + sun + sand + bikinis + shades (found the perfect sunglasses for my face shape. bye jeje me.) + music + unlimited (paid) beer + hot boys. WHAT MORE CAN I ASK FOR. That's like heaven on Earth. Sarah being my angel. No seriously, if she won't go, I probably won't go also. (I can't believe I'm professing my love for you again) My two other best friends are going, my high school best friend is going and my 2 (used to be) college barkada are going, my ex crush might be going (LOL) but none of them is as good as a bait as Sarah alone. Which makes the trip so effin' I-CANT-WAIT-TO-GO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! trip! I hope she brings her cousin too! I don't know why but I suddenly want to meet her cousin, Trish! I just want to meet new people. New people are always so interesting. I love meeting new people. :)

WHAT THE FUCK. That's 3 paragraphs of drifting away from where I'm supposed to be at right now.  

Going back....

This career is so draining!! I don't know if it's me taking it too seriously like I have become my work or it is the nature of my work. I love it but sometimes it's like being in a relationship with everyone involved and it involves uhhhh drama. Which is exactly why I'm not so much of a fan of being in a relationship. It's fun when it's happy but when there's drama, I look for the best way out and that is to quit. I hate drama but now my work's giving me so much drama. 2 days before my vacation, I had 2 guys walked out on me because of a wrong decision making I did. I know I was wrong and I accept it. I said sorry but I wish they didn't react so violently. Which lead me to having an argument with my client that made him think that I was blaming him for what happened. Which made everything way worse than it already was. 

I had a meeting with my client today because I wanted to talk to him about what happened before I left and after everything we talked about, I got a little too emotional that I couldn't explain myself to him. Every time I try to, I couldn't help but get teary eyed and I didn't want to cry in front of him so I just said that I'll tell him some other time. He even asked me to text him instead (text him while we were together because I couldn't say it out loud) but I still couldn't do it. Thinking of the things I wanted to tell him made me very emotional. I cried when I got in the car. I wanted to send him an email stating my side but I got so busy. I wanted to text him but maybe that'll be too informal and what I want to tell him is so long i don't think it'll fit a text message. But I don't know if sending him an email would be appropriate because it'll be too dramatic and it might look a little unprofessional so I'm still thinking about it. 

One of the things I realized this month is that having a relationship with everyone around you is important. It's important to think before you act and not just act the way you feel. That it is important to think about how other people are feeling. That it is important to be empathetic all the time.  It's one of the most important lessons I have learned this time and maybe that is what I need to work on next to my happiness project. (NOTE TO THAT) And no, I don't have a happiness project yet but writing this made me want to make one and include BE EMPATHETIC on my list.

Anyway, I was so disheartened with our meeting that it made me kind of aloof towards him. My job kind of requires you to be in a relationship (not romantically) with every one around you and I can't just ignore not being good terms with them. 

I keep drifting!!!

So now I'm thinking that if I'm not fit for this job what else could I do. Do I have a fall back?

I just can't imagine myself in another job since I love it too much but maybe I'm not efficient for it anymore and the only thing that's holding me here is my love for it. (TOO MUCH DRAMA)

Other career choices:

1.) House wife to my future husband

-----I know this sounds so annoying and that this will make everyone around the world cringe since women fought so hard to have equal rights with men and yet here I am wanting to be a house wife but hey! It is hard work too! Every house wife says so! 

(Okay, I don't really want to be one but it can be a choice. But it'll probably bore me to death.)

2.) Professional Make Up artist

- I used to want to be one but it seems like everyone is starting to become one now and since I hate everything mainstream this might be one of the last options. Ironic that it's the first one I thought of when it's going to be the last option that I will resort to.

3.) I've always wanted to have a career in information technology but I'm the least techie person on Earth. :O

4.) Food business selling healthy food. I don't know. It seems fun to be involved in fitness and health. It might help me lose weight. 

5.) Freelance make up artist. Okay. Freelance sounds so inviting and since makeup is the only thing I'm good at other than eating and ranting, so yeah, back to here again. I take back everything I said in number 2. Sometimes I wish I have more free time to do the things I want to do like more time to finally go to the gym.  *ehem* #foreverrant (and yes, I know that my hash tag serves no purpose in this blog but this is my blog so you shut up and read on or leave) My mood is fleeting and sometimes I get violent. Forgive me for that outburst. 

6.) Comedian on YouTube. I can totally do that because I have no shame but I need to have more witty comebacks and be funnier than I already (think) I am.

7.) Actress. I don't know how to act but hey! I'm a fast learner! For the looks and the body, I'm sure that we can do something about it. Hehe

UPDATE!

8.) Hairstylist in Boracay. I remember when I was there for 5days, my sisters and I were joking that I can just stay there and do hair braids for a living! 200/head is not a bad price for a simple hair braid. CAN TOTALLY DO THAT.

I dont know what else to do anymore. It's such a useless post title. Most of the things I said is not even related but are you surprised? LOL

Suddenly lost the hype to write something so I'm gonna end it like this,

Annie

RANDOM RANT:

My hard drive got guba and I don't know how to fix it and if I can still do something about it. That's technically my whole life in there. :((((((((((((((((((((((((( WTF 

Worst 2 days

of my life. I hope it ends.

Makes so much sense

CLICK

Weddings

With everyone hyping about Drew and Iya's wedding, I am joining the hype and is posting my top 3 favorite wedding videos!



The Pats' Wedding from ThirtySix-O Media on Vimeo.

Iya Villania and Drew Arellano's Wedding from Jason Magbanua on Vimeo.

uninspiration

It's been a month since new year and already I feel myself going down hill. My new year resolutions have been going very well. I was able to follow a lot of them especially the be organized part. Have yet to go to work early. (:p) January has ended and the start of February has not been good.

For one, I have been procrastinating more than Im supposed to.

Second, I feel very tired of having to be in charge all the time. It's starting to make me feel that this job is not for me.

Third, I feel like I just cannot work with this person anymore. I no longer trust him. The mere thought of him is making me not want to see him ever again and the mere sight of him is making me to not want to work at all. (I kinda feel that he is the reason why Im feeling uninspired to work)

Fourth, Im always spaced out. Always. It's like my mind is not where my body is. I cant focus on what the person talking to me is saying. My mind is somewhere else floating. Literally. That's why they call it lutang.

Fifth, Im so lazy to do anything. Even to travel. We'll have a family reunion in Boracay in less than 2 weeks and Im not even excited about it. I dont really get why I dont have the drive to have fun anymore. I think Ill be taking a break from drinking. Last Saturday's drinking was crazy in a bad way. Shouldve known better to never ever ever mix drinks. Im too poor for travelling. Now Im also too poor for having a good time. Im even too poor to buy makeup and clothes. God forbid that I attract this with law of attraction. I am rich!!!! (LoA)

Im just killing time........ using my phone cos Globe is fucking annoying. We dont even have dial tone and an internet connection in our office. How do we get sales?? Hmm

Bye.

Annie

The One that Kickboxes at Home

Here I am again. Distracted and smitten by your presence. Good kind of distraction.

Apple to my Pie 

Like Home -Nicky Romero

Smother - Daughter

Every Chance We get We Run - David Guetta & Alesso

Lemon Water

it works and I'm lovin' it! Seriously loving it. Drink hot water with lemon with water and it really does wonder to your aging body.

Street Parties

I may be too old for street parties.

Pretty much sums up my Sinulog weekend. To old friends, best friends, high school friends, college friends, Cebu friends, new friends and familiar faces.

Because I will always want you.

I still miss you

I still do. . .

....and you caused it

Youth - Daughter

And if you're in love, then you are the lucky one, 
'Cause most of us are bitter over someone.
Setting fire to our insides for fun, 
To distract our hearts from ever missing them.
But I'm forever missing him.

Of late night thoughts and NY Resolutions

Two weeks of vacay finally over! I just cannot wait to go back and start over again. This vacation was such a refresher! I now feel very recharged and so ready to go to battle. Well atleast it feels like that. I love how I spent everyday of my 2 weeks vacation. Balanced family time and best friends time. I even got to spend so much quality time with my cousin, Terence who's from UK. They came over for my sister's wedding.

It was kinda emotional for my sister to get married and leave the Lau residence but we all are genuinely happy for her because we all know that she's in good hands. Ahia Erick is a very good man and we all know how much they love each other. It's those kinds of marriages that you know two people are genuinely inlove. So we are all very happy for her. Achi Auy, we will all miss you! Best wishes to you and ahia Erick!

Going back, I seriously cannot wait to start my year. I have very high hopes for it. I feel like things are finally falling into places.

It's 3:05am and thoughts arekinda scattered now so I just want to share my new year's resolution.

1.) Wake up early and go to work early. Go to work before 8am! I'm verypositive about this one.
2.) Start eating clean! No more cheating on myself this time. My cousin Terence convinced me about eating clean and it's all I ever think about that whenever I see junk food, I cant help but cringe at the sight of it! I feel like barfing at the sight of unhealthy food. Mind over matter! Feeling positive about this too!
3.) Start running!!!!!! Been trying to look for cheap (on sale) and cute running shoes with le bff.  She finally got hers today for 2,995.00! It was so nice I kinda got envious. We wanted to get twin pairs but they don't have it in my size. :( I'll just get mine in Cebu. We didn't want to spend so much for running shoes so we try our best to look for the ones on sale. We're gonna start running this January!!! Not together though 'cause she lives in Bicol and I in Cebu but we're gonna do it together (not literally) 'cause we clingy like that!! So excited to start running. I have a feeling that I will get addicted to it and it's going to take over my free nights after work! Hurray!!
4.) Start being organized! I've always had problems with being organized!! I feel like my things are always all over the place! My work desk is always messy and is always full of papers. I'm working on this one!! I already have ideas on how to start with this one. Thanks to my trusty consultant, YouTube for the tips! Lol
5.) Social Media Diet!! I love how effective law of attraction is. Ever since I said I don't want to get too involved with social media, I've been too busy with work that I have less time to check instagram, twitter and facebook. It may be pure coincidence but I'm happy this happened because now, I'm so much happier with minding my own business. I no longer compare other people's life who has everything easy to mine. I no longer feel that I have less fun, over worked, no social life, etc! I just mind my own business and be grateful for what I have. There are so much more to be thankful for than sulk and be affected by the social media.
6.) Quality vs Quantity. Start investing with quality relationship. This one I am very happy about. I feel like one of the things I learned this 2013 is to invest in quality relationships with people around you. It's healthier and less toxic. Socialize less with people who makes you feel bad about yourself because seriously, what good will it do for you? Life is too short to be tolerating BS.
7.) Start conquering fears. Work related. I will start going for the gold. No longer afraid to do sales. We need it!
8.) Stop impulse booking for sale tickets. I am so guilty for impulse buying SALE flight tickets and not using it. I tend to book for tickets thinking it's going to save me money if I ever decide to go. Money is so hard to earn. Why waste it?
9.) Be very dedicated at work. If I need to work long hours. Why not? But I will always remember to go early to work to accomplish more within the day. No more procrastinating!
10.) Start taking relationships seriously. No more playing around. No more dating the wrong people. If I have to wait for the right person to come, I will. I'm done kissing frogs (figuratively), I'm ready for my prince. Maybe not this year but I'm just saying that I will no longer entertain frogs.

Sleepy and groggy,

Annie

P.S Really cannot wait to go home and live my daily life.
P.P.S Cannot wait to have my phone fixed. F.U Samsung. You suck. Big time.
P.P.P.S Hype overload for 2014!!!! (Too perky, bordering annoying)

The Greatest Love Story

Are those that never started because they will never end.

I will always want you.

Conversation with a friend about a girl he likes

Me: You are so happy!

Him: yup. She does that to me.

Awwwwwww!!! Isn't that just the cutest ever? That made my heart go awwww and it still does everytime.

Random Conversations with the BFF

Bff: Can't believe he's moved on. He's always been inlove with you.
Me: honestly, I don't even know why he loved me that much.
Bff: I know why. I get him.

Awww love my bff to bits

2014

New year, new hopes. The new year brings so much hope for everyone. It's a fresh start to those who've had such a bad year and an even greater start to those who've had a good year.

2013 was a very good year for me. Thinking about the year is starting to make me teary. Im starting to become so emotional that I want to start writing about it.

Year 2013 is my turning point year. It's my coming of age year. I was such a different person when 2013 started. I've changed so much this year. I can proudly say that I've become a better version of myself. Physically, I gained so much weight but mentally, I gained so much wisdom.

I'm so happy with who I have become and I can only thank the people who has been there for me and with me through all these changes. I feel like I'm a tougher person now. I will no longer deal with people's BS. So if you are an old acquaintance or friend of mine who Ill stop talking to, Im done with all your BS cos all you ever did to my life is to piss the shit out of me.

Cranky,

Annie

Happy new year!!