Let's make the night you won't remember
I'll be the one you wont forget.

And this song makes me want to drink beer below zero under scorching sun light wearing bikinis and shades. lol 

Booked for Boracay this May 1 with Le BFF. Can. Not. Wait. 

http://www.dailyhiit.com/hiit-blog/hiit-workout/better-sex-exercise/

Career Change, anyone?

Don't get me wrong. I love my job. I do. I can't imagine myself having a different job now but sometimes it gets draining. It drains me physically, emotionally and mentally. I had an almost outburst this morning and it affected my mood the whole day. I hate myself for letting myself be affected and letting it affect my work. I have a whole page of tasks to do but I was only able to finish 4 out of 18 (4/18) tasks in the list. (I also did some time consuming tasks that were not on the list)

Ever since I started my resolution to be organized, I like listing down all my tasks to do. I accomplish more by doing this because I tend to forget the little tasks and they never get accomplished like making calls to ask the boss this and that and make calls to ask this and that or email who or who. I also tend to not work on the dragging tasks like email the supplier when it involves me having to go through the inventory. God knows how much I hate this specific task which is also one of the most important task. I wish I can assign it to somebody else but since it is SO HARD to look for efficient people, I'll have ot just do them. I recently read (again) the Happiness Project by Gretchen Rubins and so far it's one of the most useful books I have ever read. Like ever. It's kinda like a self help book but not so. In the book, she shared how she changed her life with her Happiness Project. I'm still far from finishing the book yet I already learned so much life hacks from her. Maybe since we have the same new year's resolution which I can totally relate to. The be organized part. It just gives me so much gratification whenever I feel that I'm starting to organize myself better. Not just my things because it radiates and I'm starting to realize that we have to put in conscious efforts to be who we want to be and not just be who we are. (hihi) 

I used to be very lazy and just want to go with the flow. I didn't even want to travel because I always thought it's too tiring and too expensive!! Taking 5 days off work was good for me (but not for my bosses LOL) because now I realized that life is too short not to make the most out of it and that sometimes you just have to go and have some fun. 

That is why after some pleading and convincing my best friend to go with me to Boracay for this year's Labor day by sending her pictures from my recent trip, she finally said YES! And that's one of the happiest highlight that I will look forward to this year. Sarah, if you are reading this, I. CAN. NOT. WAIT. TO. GO. TO. BORACAY. WITH. YOU. We were supposed to go there last year together but since we are best friends and the universe kinda have something against us going there, she didn't go with me and left me alone with someone!! (:p) Sarah + beach + sun + sand + bikinis + shades (found the perfect sunglasses for my face shape. bye jeje me.) + music + unlimited (paid) beer + hot boys. WHAT MORE CAN I ASK FOR. That's like heaven on Earth. Sarah being my angel. No seriously, if she won't go, I probably won't go also. (I can't believe I'm professing my love for you again) My two other best friends are going, my high school best friend is going and my 2 (used to be) college barkada are going, my ex crush might be going (LOL) but none of them is as good as a bait as Sarah alone. Which makes the trip so effin' I-CANT-WAIT-TO-GO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! trip! I hope she brings her cousin too! I don't know why but I suddenly want to meet her cousin, Trish! I just want to meet new people. New people are always so interesting. I love meeting new people. :)

WHAT THE FUCK. That's 3 paragraphs of drifting away from where I'm supposed to be at right now.  

Going back....

This career is so draining!! I don't know if it's me taking it too seriously like I have become my work or it is the nature of my work. I love it but sometimes it's like being in a relationship with everyone involved and it involves uhhhh drama. Which is exactly why I'm not so much of a fan of being in a relationship. It's fun when it's happy but when there's drama, I look for the best way out and that is to quit. I hate drama but now my work's giving me so much drama. 2 days before my vacation, I had 2 guys walked out on me because of a wrong decision making I did. I know I was wrong and I accept it. I said sorry but I wish they didn't react so violently. Which lead me to having an argument with my client that made him think that I was blaming him for what happened. Which made everything way worse than it already was. 

I had a meeting with my client today because I wanted to talk to him about what happened before I left and after everything we talked about, I got a little too emotional that I couldn't explain myself to him. Every time I try to, I couldn't help but get teary eyed and I didn't want to cry in front of him so I just said that I'll tell him some other time. He even asked me to text him instead (text him while we were together because I couldn't say it out loud) but I still couldn't do it. Thinking of the things I wanted to tell him made me very emotional. I cried when I got in the car. I wanted to send him an email stating my side but I got so busy. I wanted to text him but maybe that'll be too informal and what I want to tell him is so long i don't think it'll fit a text message. But I don't know if sending him an email would be appropriate because it'll be too dramatic and it might look a little unprofessional so I'm still thinking about it. 

One of the things I realized this month is that having a relationship with everyone around you is important. It's important to think before you act and not just act the way you feel. That it is important to think about how other people are feeling. That it is important to be empathetic all the time.  It's one of the most important lessons I have learned this time and maybe that is what I need to work on next to my happiness project. (NOTE TO THAT) And no, I don't have a happiness project yet but writing this made me want to make one and include BE EMPATHETIC on my list.

Anyway, I was so disheartened with our meeting that it made me kind of aloof towards him. My job kind of requires you to be in a relationship (not romantically) with every one around you and I can't just ignore not being good terms with them. 

I keep drifting!!!

So now I'm thinking that if I'm not fit for this job what else could I do. Do I have a fall back?

I just can't imagine myself in another job since I love it too much but maybe I'm not efficient for it anymore and the only thing that's holding me here is my love for it. (TOO MUCH DRAMA)

Other career choices:

1.) House wife to my future husband

-----I know this sounds so annoying and that this will make everyone around the world cringe since women fought so hard to have equal rights with men and yet here I am wanting to be a house wife but hey! It is hard work too! Every house wife says so! 

(Okay, I don't really want to be one but it can be a choice. But it'll probably bore me to death.)

2.) Professional Make Up artist

- I used to want to be one but it seems like everyone is starting to become one now and since I hate everything mainstream this might be one of the last options. Ironic that it's the first one I thought of when it's going to be the last option that I will resort to.

3.) I've always wanted to have a career in information technology but I'm the least techie person on Earth. :O

4.) Food business selling healthy food. I don't know. It seems fun to be involved in fitness and health. It might help me lose weight. 

5.) Freelance make up artist. Okay. Freelance sounds so inviting and since makeup is the only thing I'm good at other than eating and ranting, so yeah, back to here again. I take back everything I said in number 2. Sometimes I wish I have more free time to do the things I want to do like more time to finally go to the gym.  *ehem* #foreverrant (and yes, I know that my hash tag serves no purpose in this blog but this is my blog so you shut up and read on or leave) My mood is fleeting and sometimes I get violent. Forgive me for that outburst. 

6.) Comedian on YouTube. I can totally do that because I have no shame but I need to have more witty comebacks and be funnier than I already (think) I am.

7.) Actress. I don't know how to act but hey! I'm a fast learner! For the looks and the body, I'm sure that we can do something about it. Hehe

UPDATE!

8.) Hairstylist in Boracay. I remember when I was there for 5days, my sisters and I were joking that I can just stay there and do hair braids for a living! 200/head is not a bad price for a simple hair braid. CAN TOTALLY DO THAT.

I dont know what else to do anymore. It's such a useless post title. Most of the things I said is not even related but are you surprised? LOL

Suddenly lost the hype to write something so I'm gonna end it like this,

Annie

RANDOM RANT:

My hard drive got guba and I don't know how to fix it and if I can still do something about it. That's technically my whole life in there. :((((((((((((((((((((((((( WTF 

Worst 2 days

of my life. I hope it ends.

Makes so much sense

CLICK

Weddings

With everyone hyping about Drew and Iya's wedding, I am joining the hype and is posting my top 3 favorite wedding videos!



The Pats' Wedding from ThirtySix-O Media on Vimeo.

Iya Villania and Drew Arellano's Wedding from Jason Magbanua on Vimeo.

uninspiration

It's been a month since new year and already I feel myself going down hill. My new year resolutions have been going very well. I was able to follow a lot of them especially the be organized part. Have yet to go to work early. (:p) January has ended and the start of February has not been good.

For one, I have been procrastinating more than Im supposed to.

Second, I feel very tired of having to be in charge all the time. It's starting to make me feel that this job is not for me.

Third, I feel like I just cannot work with this person anymore. I no longer trust him. The mere thought of him is making me not want to see him ever again and the mere sight of him is making me to not want to work at all. (I kinda feel that he is the reason why Im feeling uninspired to work)

Fourth, Im always spaced out. Always. It's like my mind is not where my body is. I cant focus on what the person talking to me is saying. My mind is somewhere else floating. Literally. That's why they call it lutang.

Fifth, Im so lazy to do anything. Even to travel. We'll have a family reunion in Boracay in less than 2 weeks and Im not even excited about it. I dont really get why I dont have the drive to have fun anymore. I think Ill be taking a break from drinking. Last Saturday's drinking was crazy in a bad way. Shouldve known better to never ever ever mix drinks. Im too poor for travelling. Now Im also too poor for having a good time. Im even too poor to buy makeup and clothes. God forbid that I attract this with law of attraction. I am rich!!!! (LoA)

Im just killing time........ using my phone cos Globe is fucking annoying. We dont even have dial tone and an internet connection in our office. How do we get sales?? Hmm

Bye.

Annie

The One that Kickboxes at Home